If God is not within you then you are separated from God.Indeed, I am!
A certain saying from the Desert Fathers also comes to mind:
Once, brethren who had heard of his virtue came to Abba Agathon to see if they could make him lose his temper. They asked him, “Are you Abba Agathon, a fornicator and a proud man?”
“Yes, that is true,” the Saint replied.
“Are you the Agathon who is always talking nonsense?” the brothers inquired.
“I am,” the Saint agreed.
“Are you Agathon the heretic?” the brothers persisted.
Abba Agathon said, “I am not a heretic.”
They asked him why he agreed with them when they accused him of vices, but then denied this last charge. Agathon replied, “I accepted the first accusations, since that was beneficial for my soul. But heresy is separation from God, and I do not wish to be separated from God.”
Therefore your justification is meaningless.