No I was dead first, then He rescued me from that nothingness, a light grew and He stepped out of it, or He became out of it, I don't know how He got into a locked house, closed room and didn't use the window either. I had of course heard some speak of Jesus, and in primary school we did have one year of learning a little about both the old and new testament, which I had never paid any attention to and all of my family were basically atheists, the subject was total TABOO in our family.
Anyhow I won't go through the entire time with Him that night, so I will skip to the end. It had started somewhere between 11.30pm and midnight, didn't have a clock in the room, and it was just about to be dawn, when He stood up, faced me and said :" I think you can rest now.", with which I agreed. Then He smiled and said these last words, which I will never forget ( actually I won't forget any of that night, ever ) :" Remember! I am always here, whether you can see Me or not.", and when He said the words " or not " He disappeared from my sight but His voice was still audible from the same location.
It took me 6 1/2 years to find a couple of people, who helped me to take more advantage in my life, of what I had experienced. they introduced me to the Bible, fellowship and most importantly to me, the receiving of the Holy spirit. boy did things take off, once I had received that beautiful gift and promise, of which I had known nothing. 99% of what took place that night with Him, was Him answering all of my questions, of which there were many, because of the state of the world.
What I believe about your spiritual life is irrelevant, it can only EVER be important to you! So, all I am saying is, if you are going to be guided by a spirit, make very very sure He is the right one....He, Love, always recognizes His own, and The Holy Spirit within a person should do leaps of joy inside of you, upon hearing any and all Truth from The Lord .
I am so very grateful to Him for all He did/does, and I am grateful that I didn't have a religious background, so I can always just speak from my heart, instead of just quoting the few things written about Him in a book. He is SOOOO much more than that, and He will give you such an adventure, if you're up for it...
Marymog......I have tried to tell you a couple of times, that you must follow your own heart, and I MUST follow the One who gives it all to me. I am not sure why you will not do that? I wish you all the best :)