Feeling Low--- Identity Crisis

[TitusTwoWife]

All my life, I've felt like my nature wasn't as good as someone naturally organized or "Type A". I am more of a creative dreamer type person.

I've been overcompensating for my ADHD brain by pushing a lot of self-discipline. I don't think it's been entirely bad. I want to be a reliable wife, mom, and friend.

The problem is that I've lost myself in the pushing. I've been so busy trying to improve my life that I don't know how to relax and enjoy it anymore. Im reliable but I don't often have a lot of fun. I don't have balance.

When I try to do watercolor or something creative, it feels like Im wasting time I could spend on chores. I miss a lot of my old personality.

 

[Hepzibah]

Sounds like you are in burnout and need to stop.

 

[Dan Clarkston]

All my life, I've felt like my nature wasn't as good as someone naturally organized or "Type A". I am more of a creative dreamer type person.

I've been overcompensating for my ADHD brain by pushing a lot of self-discipline. I don't think it's been entirely bad. I want to be a reliable wife, mom, and friend.

The problem is that I've lost myself in the pushing. I've been so busy trying to improve my life that I don't know how to relax and enjoy it anymore. Im reliable but I don't often have a lot of fun. I don't have balance.

When I try to do watercolor or something creative, it feels like Im wasting time I could spend on chores. I miss a lot of my old personality.

All this stuff should be discarded once one becomes born again

One should focus on being a New Creature in Christ Jesus and stop thinking, talking, acting according to their old life which is supposed to be passed away

2 Corinthians 5:17
If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new

We are to walk by faith not by sight... or feelings

It' a trick of the enemy to get people to continually look at their old life and to live by their feelings

Knowing all this is Christianity 101 and is basic foundational teaching all Christians should be aware of.

 

[TitusTwoWife]

Sounds like you are in burnout and need to stop.

Ill work on finding some escape time today.

 

[Dan Clarkston]

Ill work on finding some escape time today.

Matthew 11:28
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

 

[WalterandDebbie]

All my life, I've felt like my nature wasn't as good as someone naturally organized or "Type A". I am more of a creative dreamer type person.

I've been overcompensating for my ADHD brain by pushing a lot of self-discipline. I don't think it's been entirely bad. I want to be a reliable wife, mom, and friend.

The problem is that I've lost myself in the pushing. I've been so busy trying to improve my life that I don't know how to relax and enjoy it anymore. Im reliable but I don't often have a lot of fun. I don't have balance.

When I try to do watercolor or something creative, it feels like Im wasting time I could spend on chores. I miss a lot of my old personality.

Sister, I have been committed to our High Priest. Not too long ago. Also, if you have noticed, I mostly pertain to taking His Yoke Upon Myself And Learning Of Him. Please do not give up on what Your High Priest Is Saying To You, and what about your personal relationship with what He has said to you of His Promises. While He was On Earth. Have you asked Him about these things? Sister, He is now making intercession for His Believers Day And Night. That Obey HIS VOICE. He Knows Them. We must place ALL OUR CARES ON HIM; HE MUST KNOW THAT. I KNOW THAT FOR MYSELF. Thank you for your sharing. OK?

I will let my wife know about your post. I will be in prayer for you all ok? Love always, Walter

 

[Debp]

All my life, I've felt like my nature wasn't as good as someone naturally organized or "Type A". I am more of a creative dreamer type person.

I've been overcompensating for my ADHD brain by pushing a lot of self-discipline. I don't think it's been entirely bad. I want to be a reliable wife, mom, and friend.

The problem is that I've lost myself in the pushing. I've been so busy trying to improve my life that I don't know how to relax and enjoy it anymore. Im reliable but I don't often have a lot of fun. I don't have balance.

When I try to do watercolor or something creative, it feels like Im wasting time I could spend on chores. I miss a lot of my old personality.

First of all, you need to learn Biblical self esteem. That is you are a child of God. Your self esteem doesn't depend on what you do. Because if you base your self esteem on your actions or works, if something happens (illness perhaps) and you cannot do those things anymore, your self esteem will plumett.

Also since you say you were a creative type, that is how the Lord created you and can use you in that. Don't try to fight it and become someone else. Relax in the Lord and be your creative self.

 

[Ziggy]

All my life, I've felt like my nature wasn't as good as someone naturally organized or "Type A". I am more of a creative dreamer type person.

I've been overcompensating for my ADHD brain by pushing a lot of self-discipline. I don't think it's been entirely bad. I want to be a reliable wife, mom, and friend.

The problem is that I've lost myself in the pushing. I've been so busy trying to improve my life that I don't know how to relax and enjoy it anymore. Im reliable but I don't often have a lot of fun. I don't have balance.

When I try to do watercolor or something creative, it feels like Im wasting time I could spend on chores. I miss a lot of my old personality.

make a to do list of things you like to do then check them off as chores.

Take a walk.
10 minutes of aerobics
schedule a time for watercolor. If you miss it, reschedule it, don't check it off until you do it.

I always say, tomorrow.......
and funny how tomorrow sometimes never comes, but it's still on the to do list, someday.

I am totally not an A.
procrastinator should be my middle name.

There is one thing though,
Remember the self. Love thy neighbor as thyself.
Be patient and kind and forgiving when you think your not "living up" to your own expectations.

What was your "old" personality like, and what do you miss about it?
Maybe if you write it down you will see all the improvements you've made and being your "old" self is more of a chore than an adventure.


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