- Mar 26, 2008
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hi everyone. i was wondering if i could get prayer. over the last month i've just realized where in my walk god wants me to be. for years, i've always tried to jump 20 steps ahead in my walk, but finally just realized i'm not suppose to be in that position (i'm only just learning this.) i have alot of emotional baggage that i need to deal with first, but i've always stuffed it down in me over the years and realized i haven't let all my hurt go. i think sometimes, i even try to hide this pain from god where i'm completely hiding my sins from god, which is absolutely stupid and a lie. i have a real bad habbit of punishing myself and blockin in my hurt which i've been doing for years. i think in someway i punish myself for alot of bad stuff i've been through and it's real hard for me to let go of all this stuff i carry. i've been carrying it for so many years, i didn't even know i had it. so, if you could all pray for me, that would be great. i am making steps to recovery though. i'm seeing a therapist and members in my church about it. i just would like to get some xtra prayer from everyone on the board.god bless