Why do you think in this way? It's so bizarre. I used to be treated for schizophrenia, so I know well what can happen to a human brain when it psychologically malfunctions. Your mind is malfunctioning, I'm sorry, it is. If you are seeing projections of beliefs in your mind, then you are not 100% mentally sound.
It comes with the years. I used to think like you do (because I was Smart!) but as I got older I grew wiser in many ways, and I like how I think. And you think my mind is misfiring?! When you get to be around 25 years old then your brain will be fully developed by then. So maybe you can think up a smarter defense against, there is no God!
You said you read the bible some. So you know that (Proverbs 3:5-6)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
6 Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.../NLT
And
Romans 1:20
20 For ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse for not knowing God.../NLT
I remember when I was young enough that I still knew it all. That wears off, lol! But the Bible says you wont find God through your intellect, seek Him and it will happen. It also says that every being in creation (that's me & you too!) can clearly see that God is real even if He is Invisible! So somewhere deep down inside, you know the truth about God, that He is real. You just don't know Him yet.
So you will be without excuse some day. Sounds like you got some more philosophising to do. You can choose to not believe in my testimony. That isnt a big deal. But it doesnt mean that it wasnt true. I wasnt conjuring up spirits or anything new age or occult. I was checking my emails and not even thinking about the Lord! He inturuppted me! Walked right in He did. And He stayed invisible, but I knew exactly where He was standing because I could feel Him radiating His power. Like I said before, when Jesus walks into the room...you know it.
I hear four different voice within me! And I can tell them apart because I have been paying attention for so long. My carnal mind, my conscience, My spirit, and the still small voice of God. So not only do I hear voices but I am actually possessed by the Lord God!
I am...in Christ, so Christ is in me. He stands beside me, He goes ahead of me to clear the way and He brings up my rear guard. Now Christ is in the Father and the Father in Him, so the Father is with me also! And dont forget the Holy Spirit! Oh! Plus my gurdian Angel and my scribe Angel. So I walk around with an entourage of spiritual beings around me and within me.
You know what? I like that.
You sure you dont want to hear any more testimonies? I got some doozies.
One of them can be verified! By two other people besides me!