I stopped striving with people in the world, now I am spiritually starving (to get what God wants for me - prayer?)

[Gottservant]

Hi there,

So for a long time I have been striving with the people of the world, wanting favour, wanting fame. Ostensibly, I wanted the attention for the truth, but that was really a cover for my own ego. Realistically I was going to grab all the attention, whatever the truth was. I don't think I necessarily "wanted it all", but I was going to deal with that later - meaning "in my own strength".

The thing is, now that I have removed myself from the world and dedicated myself to God, I am spiritually ravenous. I feel like the world has emptied me and left me out of touch with God. I don't know how distant God is. Maybe it's time for the wilderness - I thought I was over it, but how do you tell?

I have a cross, I need to bear that up. I can pray. These things will feed me, that's true. I guess I just need a little spiritual guidance, from people who've backslidden themselves.

Actually, God just reminded me of a dream I had. Maybe I am closer to God than I think? Lord have mercy!

 

[Gottservant]

I was just looking over this and God said "I needed you (where you are)".

I feel like I am in His Will now!

 

[Kayla McCanny]

Sending prayers. It's easy to try to fill the void with other stuff besides God and not be content and not complacent. Pursue his presence. He loves you and he has your best interests in mind.