Hi! (To whoever is out there)
A little background to me; I found the Lord about 8 years ago, He broke my crooked ways and then re-aligned my life and cast my spirit with his love! I was on fire for Jesus, then i had to leave the place i felt God's presence and go back home... I tried to keep the fire in my heart, (none of my family or friends are Christians, and the churchs where i live are dead to the spirit) i was like a solitary candle in the wilderness, a lump of coal fallen from the hearth, the fire dimmed and eventually went cold. I tried to plant seeds into the hearts of those who were interested, answered questions, handed out WWJD / FROG / PUSH wrist bands to everyone that wanted one (this was quite a successful venture, at one stage when the fire still burned within me we were out in a club and i noticed that probably about 30% of the people in the club were wearing Jesus bands ^_^ It was a small victory! People still come up to me and ask if i have any band to give them to this day!). I tried to live my life a beacon of light so that others could follow the path.
But eventually i was empty, i had given everything i had, and i lost the way to refill myself! I slipped away from Jesus' love, i dated a non-Christian, my life started to change, I started to change (although i didn't know it!). 5 year down the line and i looked at my life, i still thought of myself as a Christian but i was a poor excuse for one... then about 2 months ago i went back to where i was saved and ive been renewed once again! Hallelujah! I realised i couldn't be the person i had become and couldn't live the life i was living. I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years, it was not an easy choice but it was the right choice.
My issue is, i feel like the devil has dragged me so far from where i used to be with Jesus... Only once have i felt something akin to God telling me He loves me for who i am, it brought me to tears. But it feels like the Devil is whispering in my ear taking this moment away from me (i.e. it was all in my head, He didn't speak to me).
How do i get back to where i used to be? The devil has stolen my youthful years from Jesus - and i want them back!
Am i hearing but not listening, am i looking but not seeing? Can you guys share some of your testimonies with me - I only have one and its fading in my mind.
There has been many things happen in my life that i thank God for and believe that without Him i would not be who i am today, but only once has He spoken to me - i was at church - and we were worshipping singing this song...
"He is Good, He is Good and his Love endures.
He is Good, He is Good and his Love endures."
This is what i heard, i can't even describe how i heard it;
"I love you, I love you, I love you"
Simple... but powerful enough to bring me to my knees in tears (my eyes just glistened over just typing it).
Please share your faith with me.
A little background to me; I found the Lord about 8 years ago, He broke my crooked ways and then re-aligned my life and cast my spirit with his love! I was on fire for Jesus, then i had to leave the place i felt God's presence and go back home... I tried to keep the fire in my heart, (none of my family or friends are Christians, and the churchs where i live are dead to the spirit) i was like a solitary candle in the wilderness, a lump of coal fallen from the hearth, the fire dimmed and eventually went cold. I tried to plant seeds into the hearts of those who were interested, answered questions, handed out WWJD / FROG / PUSH wrist bands to everyone that wanted one (this was quite a successful venture, at one stage when the fire still burned within me we were out in a club and i noticed that probably about 30% of the people in the club were wearing Jesus bands ^_^ It was a small victory! People still come up to me and ask if i have any band to give them to this day!). I tried to live my life a beacon of light so that others could follow the path.
But eventually i was empty, i had given everything i had, and i lost the way to refill myself! I slipped away from Jesus' love, i dated a non-Christian, my life started to change, I started to change (although i didn't know it!). 5 year down the line and i looked at my life, i still thought of myself as a Christian but i was a poor excuse for one... then about 2 months ago i went back to where i was saved and ive been renewed once again! Hallelujah! I realised i couldn't be the person i had become and couldn't live the life i was living. I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years, it was not an easy choice but it was the right choice.
My issue is, i feel like the devil has dragged me so far from where i used to be with Jesus... Only once have i felt something akin to God telling me He loves me for who i am, it brought me to tears. But it feels like the Devil is whispering in my ear taking this moment away from me (i.e. it was all in my head, He didn't speak to me).
How do i get back to where i used to be? The devil has stolen my youthful years from Jesus - and i want them back!
Am i hearing but not listening, am i looking but not seeing? Can you guys share some of your testimonies with me - I only have one and its fading in my mind.
There has been many things happen in my life that i thank God for and believe that without Him i would not be who i am today, but only once has He spoken to me - i was at church - and we were worshipping singing this song...
"He is Good, He is Good and his Love endures.
He is Good, He is Good and his Love endures."
This is what i heard, i can't even describe how i heard it;
"I love you, I love you, I love you"
Simple... but powerful enough to bring me to my knees in tears (my eyes just glistened over just typing it).
Please share your faith with me.