I really don't know where to start. Today a lot has happened and I feel I have to share this with some fellow Christians. I stayed at my parent's house since I was feeling sick, after having taken care of my mother who was sick as well. My mother has a poor health and also is a very anxious person. I know my father played a very big role in her state of being.
My father is a sad person really. He had a hard youth and has a past of addiction to hard drugs and things that go a long with it. He is unemployed and hangs out with the wrong types of persons. Most of them unemployed and have a negative outlook on life, playing the victims of society. At least that's what I came to understand, since he lives his private life secretly. But he is always defending his way of life and his friends way of life.
While at home he can be nice at times and suddenly he changes in character and becomes evil. Out of nowhere. He has an angerness in him that is not to be ignored and he is being very verbally abusive. He got of of hard drugs (with the help of prayer he told me) but smokes cannabis since I can remember, even though my mother doesn't agree, she ignores it out of fear. She just isn't strong enough to make a standpoint and even if she does he doesn't take it seriously enough. She is trying to find excuses why things are still are the way they are.
Since I am trying to be more close to God, which my parents find very positive, I realize how evil this situation is.Today I let myself go in angerness because I was just getting out of depression and he was being verbally agressive again for no reason. My mother was a witness of it and became upset as well. The only thing he can do is point the finger at me and he sees nothing wrong with his immoral behaviour. He just doesn't see the evilness of it. I know satan is playing a role in this. My mother is very weak and is incapable of coping with this, although she's trying. I told the only and first step in the rigth direction is him getting of drugs. My mother is recently beginning to realize this. I sent her an email of addiction care in the hope she'll persuade him to get help. I am at my place now to get a peace of mind. I really think taking distance right now is the only way to keep my sanity. My mother is home alone having a huge head ache and my father is gone, fleeing from his problems. He'll return later this evening playing the victim again. Please pray for God's light in this darkness and that satan power over our family will be broken once and for all. I'll appreciate it a lot.
My father is a sad person really. He had a hard youth and has a past of addiction to hard drugs and things that go a long with it. He is unemployed and hangs out with the wrong types of persons. Most of them unemployed and have a negative outlook on life, playing the victims of society. At least that's what I came to understand, since he lives his private life secretly. But he is always defending his way of life and his friends way of life.
While at home he can be nice at times and suddenly he changes in character and becomes evil. Out of nowhere. He has an angerness in him that is not to be ignored and he is being very verbally abusive. He got of of hard drugs (with the help of prayer he told me) but smokes cannabis since I can remember, even though my mother doesn't agree, she ignores it out of fear. She just isn't strong enough to make a standpoint and even if she does he doesn't take it seriously enough. She is trying to find excuses why things are still are the way they are.
Since I am trying to be more close to God, which my parents find very positive, I realize how evil this situation is.Today I let myself go in angerness because I was just getting out of depression and he was being verbally agressive again for no reason. My mother was a witness of it and became upset as well. The only thing he can do is point the finger at me and he sees nothing wrong with his immoral behaviour. He just doesn't see the evilness of it. I know satan is playing a role in this. My mother is very weak and is incapable of coping with this, although she's trying. I told the only and first step in the rigth direction is him getting of drugs. My mother is recently beginning to realize this. I sent her an email of addiction care in the hope she'll persuade him to get help. I am at my place now to get a peace of mind. I really think taking distance right now is the only way to keep my sanity. My mother is home alone having a huge head ache and my father is gone, fleeing from his problems. He'll return later this evening playing the victim again. Please pray for God's light in this darkness and that satan power over our family will be broken once and for all. I'll appreciate it a lot.
