Dear Helen;
Prayer for you continues. I do not pretend to understand suffering even after a lifetime of it.
My own mother came down with Lupus, the wolf, at a mere twenty five. Childhood was a succession of operations, hospital stays and recoveries. My father had a cerebral aneurysm at 43 and went into the VA. It left him speechless and paralyzed on the right side of his body.
Many times as an adult my mother would be in the hospital too. Sometime we went from the VA hospital to the one that my mother was in.
Sometimes I just wanted to vanish. I never was able to comprehend those families that weren't afflicted. Those never afflicted are devastated when something finally hits. Those that have suffered for years are usually battle hardened.
We have prayer that has been given us so I must use that as best I can for everyone.
I tell God that I don't understand the love He puts us for others, but no seeming power to help them. It's puzzling.
So then prayer is what we are given. I must labor in prayer that others be benefitted. I see now that the prospect of living long in a debilitated state is a grim prospect.
There's a grim joke that says be careful what you say, God will make you live longer.
My only living uncle is 90 and lives In a nursing home. He has copd and has a time just breathing.
All I know to do is pray. My wife and I were always hard workers but because of pain have to force ourselves to perform now. She is 75 and I 74.
Once my wife's knees were irreparably damaged when they shoved in the dash. She can barely walk and that with great pain and difficulty. Amazingly she refuses a wheelchair. She has I think more moxie than I. The black family that hit us was on their way home from church but couldn't find the care to walk over and see if we were injured.
Two years ago a young man tried to kill me with his car. He was Satan's agent but didn't know it. He demanded to go to the hospital while I refused. He didn't bother to walk across the street to see if I was alive after he t-boned and totaled our new car, first one in 15 years LOL. Another cold heart. We are sad at the hardened hearts everywhere we go.
I know you suffer and I'm trying to derail your post just sympathizing with your condition.
I have no desire to live long in my body as it is. I'm perplexed at the physical state of all who are afflicted.
My youngest brother is about 66 and he is a 100% DAV. He has had about 25 operations and takes almost that number of meds daily just to survive. I cannot even talk to him on the phone because his pain meds cause his speech to be always slurred.
Again all I see we have is prayer and the measure of faith given us.
So then let me use this in prayer for you and your husband who carries a load.
Even in an afflicted state every day we have with loved ones is a treasure. My words are no revelation to you but enjoy every minute with your husband that you get.
Were I able I'd come and anoint you with oil and pray you with laying on of hands. It's what we're shown to do. I suppose and hope you have friends to do this.
Prayer for you continues. I do not pretend to understand suffering even after a lifetime of it.
My own mother came down with Lupus, the wolf, at a mere twenty five. Childhood was a succession of operations, hospital stays and recoveries. My father had a cerebral aneurysm at 43 and went into the VA. It left him speechless and paralyzed on the right side of his body.
Many times as an adult my mother would be in the hospital too. Sometime we went from the VA hospital to the one that my mother was in.
Sometimes I just wanted to vanish. I never was able to comprehend those families that weren't afflicted. Those never afflicted are devastated when something finally hits. Those that have suffered for years are usually battle hardened.
We have prayer that has been given us so I must use that as best I can for everyone.
I tell God that I don't understand the love He puts us for others, but no seeming power to help them. It's puzzling.
So then prayer is what we are given. I must labor in prayer that others be benefitted. I see now that the prospect of living long in a debilitated state is a grim prospect.
There's a grim joke that says be careful what you say, God will make you live longer.
My only living uncle is 90 and lives In a nursing home. He has copd and has a time just breathing.
All I know to do is pray. My wife and I were always hard workers but because of pain have to force ourselves to perform now. She is 75 and I 74.
Once my wife's knees were irreparably damaged when they shoved in the dash. She can barely walk and that with great pain and difficulty. Amazingly she refuses a wheelchair. She has I think more moxie than I. The black family that hit us was on their way home from church but couldn't find the care to walk over and see if we were injured.
Two years ago a young man tried to kill me with his car. He was Satan's agent but didn't know it. He demanded to go to the hospital while I refused. He didn't bother to walk across the street to see if I was alive after he t-boned and totaled our new car, first one in 15 years LOL. Another cold heart. We are sad at the hardened hearts everywhere we go.
I know you suffer and I'm trying to derail your post just sympathizing with your condition.
I have no desire to live long in my body as it is. I'm perplexed at the physical state of all who are afflicted.
My youngest brother is about 66 and he is a 100% DAV. He has had about 25 operations and takes almost that number of meds daily just to survive. I cannot even talk to him on the phone because his pain meds cause his speech to be always slurred.
Again all I see we have is prayer and the measure of faith given us.
So then let me use this in prayer for you and your husband who carries a load.
Even in an afflicted state every day we have with loved ones is a treasure. My words are no revelation to you but enjoy every minute with your husband that you get.
Were I able I'd come and anoint you with oil and pray you with laying on of hands. It's what we're shown to do. I suppose and hope you have friends to do this.
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