well,
knowledge brings sorrow eh, so i dunno; maybe in a sense or certain context
So I figured i’d preface this by saying I have schizophrenia. I don’t hear voices but I tend to get wrapped up in delusional thinking. I figure that being honest is the best way to get a genuine response that addresses my question, which is “how do I know where my delusion stops and god starts?” Am I seeing god or am I delusional? I’ve come here because I’ve been on a spiritual search looking for a model of reality that is cohesive and sane enough to live in. I found that almost every spiritual teacher reveres Jesus. I tried to be completely logical and be atheist, but I found myself in an illogical reality where cause and effect are at play in a physical sense, but things are driven by love which is an illogical emotion. In my spiritual search, I realized that consciousness is infinite and is a divine aspect capable of creating anything. It has to come from somewhere. Anyway, I just want to know how to draw the line between my delusions and god. When people say they’re getting signs from god, what is the difference between them and a schizophrenic besides the fact that they aren’t diagnosed? and if I convert how do i stop myself from getting delusional?
hi, and welcome, im mark
man, i cant imagine being given that to overcome! And i really dont have any advice other than
test everything, and keep what is good. And i would def take advantage of those more knowledgeable in the Bible, but at the same time be critical in a sense, and read for yourself.
ive stuck with the Bible bc It has proved Itself to be like literally alive, in such a weird way; you can read a passage for forty years and then suddenly diff meanings can be revealed to you; you are prolly aware that Jesus pretty much clowned the religious of His day, right? But as it turns out, He gave the highest praise to a pagan (Roman Centurion) and an “atheist” (by Israel's standards anyway, a Samaritan), and thats just one example.
so anyway i wish you the best in your walk, and as to your last two questions there, they are great ones imo, and i would keep them in front of me during any teaching, bc there is a lot of well-intentioned delusion out there.
Truth is established by two or three witnesses, it is said, which i guess you will kinda have to…hear on a diff level to understand, imo three baptists would prolly be like one witness, but you might have a better insight there for yourself. peace to you, mark