My greatest joy and pain come in my relationships with others. There is one pain I often feel. It is having no one to talk to, no one to tell me it will be alright. No one to huge me. I have never been the most important thing to anybody not even myself. I just want to go far, far away from everybody, where I can just scream my heart out. My pain is so unmanageable that the idea of spending another day with it seems impossible. I have tried to use it as a compass to help me through the messier tunnels of life yet it hurts more.
Lord Jesus, onto you i lay my burden
Lord Jesus, onto you i lay my burden