Have you inquired of the Lord as to why you experience this sensitivity? I'm guessing you have.
Understanding MPD/DID & SRA/MK
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GEN2REV
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No I never have.
I guess I've always assumed it's the way people were supposed to be before we got all wrapped up in modern conventions and technology, etc. I experienced lots of psychic experiences growing up and because I never doubted them or had them stifled by any modern nay-saying, or ever was put into a position in life to ignore/silence the truth of them, I believe those abilities remained strong most my life.
Those particular things have faded a lot in my adult years, but I don't think they did as fast, or as young, as they do in most. I've always had a deep sense of awareness and knowing (Faith?) that I never allowed modern science, or modern belief systems, to destroy. Never been afraid to hold fast to my own beliefs despite what any others believed.
Any theories why I'm sensitive to Full Moons or what it might mean?
Well, any theories that I may come up with would be useless compared to an answer the Lord would give. I've never known or met a non-survivor who experienced such awareness and sensitivities to spiritual things. And I do believe that all Christians should be able to discern the spiritual atmosphere. Most don't pay it a bit of attention. But maybe it's time to ask Him.
Copying this here from another thread where I shared it....
I have always had this memory (since I was small), of being taken to a military base. I always remember it being night time when I was taken there, walking hand in hand with a man of large build and large stature.
This one particular time, I was taken there for a specific reason ....this was "think tank" stuff where MK programmers bring their successes and show them off to each other and share ideas. Kinda a brag session, more or less. (They are very prideful!!)
So they brought me there and I don't remember any if the bad stuff (although it's a given that bad things happened). But the next morning, I'm walking down the halls toward the cafeteria (or whatever it's called). People are looking at me in passing, smiling, and greeting me by name.....pats on the head and such. Then I get to the counter to tell the lady what I wanted to eat ....she smiles and greets me by name. But my head was barely up to where I could see over the counter. I was somewhere around age 4.
I have always had this memory (since I was small), of being taken to a military base. I always remember it being night time when I was taken there, walking hand in hand with a man of large build and large stature.
This one particular time, I was taken there for a specific reason ....this was "think tank" stuff where MK programmers bring their successes and show them off to each other and share ideas. Kinda a brag session, more or less. (They are very prideful!!)
So they brought me there and I don't remember any if the bad stuff (although it's a given that bad things happened). But the next morning, I'm walking down the halls toward the cafeteria (or whatever it's called). People are looking at me in passing, smiling, and greeting me by name.....pats on the head and such. Then I get to the counter to tell the lady what I wanted to eat ....she smiles and greets me by name. But my head was barely up to where I could see over the counter. I was somewhere around age 4.
Just curious....
My programmers actually programmed at least 3 internal computer systems into my alter systems.
In 2005, I met an "internal programmer" alter. "He" wore a white lab coat, and held a clip board with grid paper and when he spoke, it was in code ...computer code. Alters are given code references and are charted on a grid system. An illuminati programmed person will usually have a 13x13x13 gridded system (as I did).
That was the beginning of a time when alters were coming forward (to me) by the dozens or hundreds, sharing info about themselves, and integrating.
Later, I found 3 internal computer systems. Each system, of course, was comprised of many hundreds if not thousands of alters. I learned that someone (a handler or programmer), could access my internal computers via a password. And upon accessing, there were these (what looked like) "command prompt" boxes full of thousands of codes. Two of the command prompt boxes was filled with genealogical information and masonic rites. Of course, each computer component was an alter or group of alters performing that function. But internally, they were seen as a "command prompt box" or a "file" or what have you.
At the time I became aware of these internal computer systems, one alter came forward and shared a bit of her experience. Inside, when I saw her, she was just a "head" .....no body. The setting was beautiful... inside a rather large jungle home. Behind her was a glass sliding door that led to a lanai or patio of some sort ....with a gazebo area covered with a thatched roof ....all overlooking a beautiful South American jungle. I saw her in front of a computer screen, with electrodes attached to her (head/brain). In some other location, there were 3 programmers in white lab coats. They had computers with which they would type messages and communicate to her ....directly to her/brain. She would "think" her reply back to them (no typing) and the words would appear on their computer screens. This was the beginnings of what is now being pushed as brain-to-computer interfacing. Also, there was another person (male) that she was interfaced with, brain-to-brain.
After she showed me that memory, she had a very shameful and sad look on her face. She looked down, and the "face" came off ....and all I saw was a brain. Nothing else. She only was seen internally as a brain. She had worn the "face" for my sake. But now, I saw her as she saw herself ....just a brain. She said, "What they did to us was hideous!"
The next morning after I met her, I woke up to get out of bed. And upon putting my feet on the floor to stand up, I collapsed to the floor. It was as of my legs had been dislocated. They wouldn't work. That day, I spent the whole day in bed suffering violently severe full body (but mostly legs, from hips to toes) muscle spasms. My two younger daughters stayed by my side that day, massaging muscles ...mostly pressure points on my hands and forehead, which my middle daughter (18 at the time) learned in cosmetology/massage school. I spent the entire day that way, with my feet up on the wall to keep them from completely drawing up. Spasms came in waves with barely a minute or two between ....hip to toes. The pain was ....horrific.
That night, I met another alter. Internally, she looked like a ragdoll wearing a dress. Only she had no face ...and no legs or arms. What I learned is that she was the part (alter) who held memories of being bound on a surface, limbs dislocated ...electrodes attached to the body in various places ...and electrocuted anytime she gave a wrong answer. She was a little girl, and when asked, she would say she's a little girl ....wrong answer ...electric shock, spasms, very painful ....ask again....wrong answer.....shock ....finally she learned to identify as something nonhuman ....little girls get tortured. She didn't want to be a little girl anymore. This is how they dehumanize and get alters who will identify as computer components (at least in my experience).
Btw, the spasms and inability to walk were what is called "abreaction" and "body memories." Memories are stored not only in the brain, but in every cell of the body. This is why an organ donor recipient will often get memories belonging to the donor. And this ks why a (human) clone will have memories of the person they were cloned from. The body (DNA) remembers.
About having "male" alters ....I had a handful of those. Part of healing that leads to integration is realizing their true identity as parts of the whole ...who is female. It had nothing to do with sexual orientation. It was more about function. I had an adolescent "male" alter named Sam whose job in that system (group) of alters was to take beatings. Males are seen as tougher, stronger and they needed a part who was strong enough to take beatings. Sam did heal and integrate. It took a little while...months.
I'll probably copy this over to my MPD/DID thread.
My programmers actually programmed at least 3 internal computer systems into my alter systems.
In 2005, I met an "internal programmer" alter. "He" wore a white lab coat, and held a clip board with grid paper and when he spoke, it was in code ...computer code. Alters are given code references and are charted on a grid system. An illuminati programmed person will usually have a 13x13x13 gridded system (as I did).
That was the beginning of a time when alters were coming forward (to me) by the dozens or hundreds, sharing info about themselves, and integrating.
Later, I found 3 internal computer systems. Each system, of course, was comprised of many hundreds if not thousands of alters. I learned that someone (a handler or programmer), could access my internal computers via a password. And upon accessing, there were these (what looked like) "command prompt" boxes full of thousands of codes. Two of the command prompt boxes was filled with genealogical information and masonic rites. Of course, each computer component was an alter or group of alters performing that function. But internally, they were seen as a "command prompt box" or a "file" or what have you.
At the time I became aware of these internal computer systems, one alter came forward and shared a bit of her experience. Inside, when I saw her, she was just a "head" .....no body. The setting was beautiful... inside a rather large jungle home. Behind her was a glass sliding door that led to a lanai or patio of some sort ....with a gazebo area covered with a thatched roof ....all overlooking a beautiful South American jungle. I saw her in front of a computer screen, with electrodes attached to her (head/brain). In some other location, there were 3 programmers in white lab coats. They had computers with which they would type messages and communicate to her ....directly to her/brain. She would "think" her reply back to them (no typing) and the words would appear on their computer screens. This was the beginnings of what is now being pushed as brain-to-computer interfacing. Also, there was another person (male) that she was interfaced with, brain-to-brain.
After she showed me that memory, she had a very shameful and sad look on her face. She looked down, and the "face" came off ....and all I saw was a brain. Nothing else. She only was seen internally as a brain. She had worn the "face" for my sake. But now, I saw her as she saw herself ....just a brain. She said, "What they did to us was hideous!"
The next morning after I met her, I woke up to get out of bed. And upon putting my feet on the floor to stand up, I collapsed to the floor. It was as of my legs had been dislocated. They wouldn't work. That day, I spent the whole day in bed suffering violently severe full body (but mostly legs, from hips to toes) muscle spasms. My two younger daughters stayed by my side that day, massaging muscles ...mostly pressure points on my hands and forehead, which my middle daughter (18 at the time) learned in cosmetology/massage school. I spent the entire day that way, with my feet up on the wall to keep them from completely drawing up. Spasms came in waves with barely a minute or two between ....hip to toes. The pain was ....horrific.
That night, I met another alter. Internally, she looked like a ragdoll wearing a dress. Only she had no face ...and no legs or arms. What I learned is that she was the part (alter) who held memories of being bound on a surface, limbs dislocated ...electrodes attached to the body in various places ...and electrocuted anytime she gave a wrong answer. She was a little girl, and when asked, she would say she's a little girl ....wrong answer ...electric shock, spasms, very painful ....ask again....wrong answer.....shock ....finally she learned to identify as something nonhuman ....little girls get tortured. She didn't want to be a little girl anymore. This is how they dehumanize and get alters who will identify as computer components (at least in my experience).
Btw, the spasms and inability to walk were what is called "abreaction" and "body memories." Memories are stored not only in the brain, but in every cell of the body. This is why an organ donor recipient will often get memories belonging to the donor. And this ks why a (human) clone will have memories of the person they were cloned from. The body (DNA) remembers.
About having "male" alters ....I had a handful of those. Part of healing that leads to integration is realizing their true identity as parts of the whole ...who is female. It had nothing to do with sexual orientation. It was more about function. I had an adolescent "male" alter named Sam whose job in that system (group) of alters was to take beatings. Males are seen as tougher, stronger and they needed a part who was strong enough to take beatings. Sam did heal and integrate. It took a little while...months.
I'll probably copy this over to my MPD/DID thread.
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Continued.....
Just curious....
These were memories that came back when the alter personalities came forward (to connect with me). Alter personalities hold most of the trauma memories. So what I shared were memories held by other parts of myself which happened in the past ....whether childhood or teens, etc.
But .....this is something that belongs more in my other thread ....for a person born by illuminati and/or masonic bloodline into MK Ultra and SRA, trauma doesn't just stop once a person grows up and moves out of their parents' house.
The cult (programmers, handlers, perps) don't just let a person go who they put so much work into since their conception. Even healing and integration isn't a guarantee that there will not be more trauma, as attempts to retraumatize, punish, etc, are ongoing. Something could happen last month that I didn't remember because a part of me (an alter) came forward to experience and hold that trauma away from me so I could function ....albeit, wonder why I ended up with bruising or dislocated shoulders, ribs, hips .....and have to see a chiropractor to "fix" it. Memories come later...
I know that will lead to more questions ....
Just curious....
These were memories that came back when the alter personalities came forward (to connect with me). Alter personalities hold most of the trauma memories. So what I shared were memories held by other parts of myself which happened in the past ....whether childhood or teens, etc.
But .....this is something that belongs more in my other thread ....for a person born by illuminati and/or masonic bloodline into MK Ultra and SRA, trauma doesn't just stop once a person grows up and moves out of their parents' house.
The cult (programmers, handlers, perps) don't just let a person go who they put so much work into since their conception. Even healing and integration isn't a guarantee that there will not be more trauma, as attempts to retraumatize, punish, etc, are ongoing. Something could happen last month that I didn't remember because a part of me (an alter) came forward to experience and hold that trauma away from me so I could function ....albeit, wonder why I ended up with bruising or dislocated shoulders, ribs, hips .....and have to see a chiropractor to "fix" it. Memories come later...
I know that will lead to more questions ....
Just curious....
It was mainly just a curiosity, because although I have had an extensive amount of trauma from in the womb, I still have early childhood memories.
I have a sort of insider's understanding of how the mind, brain, and memories work. It's very complex. I was trained at a young age (sad to say) by my programmers, many things related to trauma and its effects on the brain to induce dissociation. And through my years of healing, I have learned how the mind/brain works to protect itself through dissociation, and storing away memories into files, very much like a computer. And those files often act like a cache on a computer....they are there for quick access when needed, then stored away (out of sight, out of mind) when not in use. So it's like you don't remember the info in those files, until you need to.
When there has been extensive trauma to the point of shattering one's mind (creating alter personalities), each part (or alter personality) has a different set of files. And sometimes alters share certain files (memory). For me, I had to learn how to access files (memory) and hold onto that information rather than just use the "quick cache" system ....of only accessing info as needed, then releasing it. I was only one part of the whole and so shattered, I had hundreds of thousands of alter personalities. God has brought much healing, integration, etc! And the healing continues.
Goodness, I could go on and on. And it's quite complex. I'm not sure I'm explaining this very well.
It was mainly just a curiosity, because although I have had an extensive amount of trauma from in the womb, I still have early childhood memories.
I have a sort of insider's understanding of how the mind, brain, and memories work. It's very complex. I was trained at a young age (sad to say) by my programmers, many things related to trauma and its effects on the brain to induce dissociation. And through my years of healing, I have learned how the mind/brain works to protect itself through dissociation, and storing away memories into files, very much like a computer. And those files often act like a cache on a computer....they are there for quick access when needed, then stored away (out of sight, out of mind) when not in use. So it's like you don't remember the info in those files, until you need to.
When there has been extensive trauma to the point of shattering one's mind (creating alter personalities), each part (or alter personality) has a different set of files. And sometimes alters share certain files (memory). For me, I had to learn how to access files (memory) and hold onto that information rather than just use the "quick cache" system ....of only accessing info as needed, then releasing it. I was only one part of the whole and so shattered, I had hundreds of thousands of alter personalities. God has brought much healing, integration, etc! And the healing continues.
Goodness, I could go on and on. And it's quite complex. I'm not sure I'm explaining this very well.
lilygrace
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In the past few years high profile traffickers are mentioned now. Apparently supposedly Ghislaine Maxwell starts her trial today....
But as i was digging about id2020 i noticed this.
What a strategy to get us tracked. I don't believe it will stop trafficking and child marriage.
But as i was digging about id2020 i noticed this.
What a strategy to get us tracked. I don't believe it will stop trafficking and child marriage.
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lilygrace
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lilygrace
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You're welcome*hugs*
if only you ddint have to though. thank you
This is part of my personal testimony. I should be permitted to share MY TESTIMONY because it is supported by Jesus Christ in Scripture.
Revelation 12:11
[11]And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.
This thread was started by me....not to bash people, but to expose evil and to be a voice for victims of SRA/MK.
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I know what goes on in the RCC system because of things (satanic rituals) I experienced involving the top man over the catholic church - the jesuit black pope. I do feel passionate about those things, but more out of a desire to expose that evil. Many thousands, if not millions of survivors like myself have experienced horrible things by the black pope, the pope, at the Vatican and other locations of their choosing (such as the Temple Mount).
My first concern is that I speak the truth as a voice for those other victims who haven't yet come to freedom. And I don't regret exposing that system and what goes on in secret.
I have met many catholics who are nice people. I have met one who actually prayed to God in Jesus' name ....rather than to a saint or "Mary" (the queen of heaven) or an angel. She was my midwife. And I have also met sooooo many survivors of SRA/MK who came from a Catholic background who exposed what happened to them under the cloak of Catholic worship, and many of them were also taken to the vatican for induction ceremonies involving human (usually child) sacrifice. I know that isn't pleasant ....but it's the truth.
I also know that most Catholics have no clue this is happening. But if they can be given the truth, it may save them from a life of idolatry ....like @JohnPaul and like my husband who was raised in that religion.
That system is responsible for most, if not all integration of pagan traditions into "protestant" Christian churches. Those need to be exposed and the Church would do well to assess and do some housecleaning.
I'm not trying to sound hateful. And I know the average Catholic doesn't want to know these things. But it needs to be told. Silencing victims of that system in favor of tolerance is sooo wrong. It's heartbreaking to see so many caught up in something that is built on deception.
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I would also like to mention that my abuse didn't only occur in Catholic settings, but in AoG, and UPC, non-denominational, etc churches. And these too were rituals involving infant sacrifice, as well as sexual abuse. So it isn't just the RCC. This is my testimony.
The point is ....the churches are corrupted. I haven't been in a church ...Christian or Catholic or Mormon (I have mormon relatives) where luciferians hadn't infiltrated or even headed those churches. Yet, the non-denominational church where I experienced SRA (covertly) ...being pastored and staffed by cult ....had their ties right back to the Vatican and the Jesuit black pope. It was that pastor who escorted me to that personal meeting with the black pope when I was a child. There is that undercurrent of the Babylonian system that runs through all of this.
@APAK
Revelation 12:11
[11]And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.
This thread was started by me....not to bash people, but to expose evil and to be a voice for victims of SRA/MK.
__________________________________________
I know what goes on in the RCC system because of things (satanic rituals) I experienced involving the top man over the catholic church - the jesuit black pope. I do feel passionate about those things, but more out of a desire to expose that evil. Many thousands, if not millions of survivors like myself have experienced horrible things by the black pope, the pope, at the Vatican and other locations of their choosing (such as the Temple Mount).
My first concern is that I speak the truth as a voice for those other victims who haven't yet come to freedom. And I don't regret exposing that system and what goes on in secret.
I have met many catholics who are nice people. I have met one who actually prayed to God in Jesus' name ....rather than to a saint or "Mary" (the queen of heaven) or an angel. She was my midwife. And I have also met sooooo many survivors of SRA/MK who came from a Catholic background who exposed what happened to them under the cloak of Catholic worship, and many of them were also taken to the vatican for induction ceremonies involving human (usually child) sacrifice. I know that isn't pleasant ....but it's the truth.
I also know that most Catholics have no clue this is happening. But if they can be given the truth, it may save them from a life of idolatry ....like @JohnPaul and like my husband who was raised in that religion.
That system is responsible for most, if not all integration of pagan traditions into "protestant" Christian churches. Those need to be exposed and the Church would do well to assess and do some housecleaning.
I'm not trying to sound hateful. And I know the average Catholic doesn't want to know these things. But it needs to be told. Silencing victims of that system in favor of tolerance is sooo wrong. It's heartbreaking to see so many caught up in something that is built on deception.
___________________________________________
I would also like to mention that my abuse didn't only occur in Catholic settings, but in AoG, and UPC, non-denominational, etc churches. And these too were rituals involving infant sacrifice, as well as sexual abuse. So it isn't just the RCC. This is my testimony.
The point is ....the churches are corrupted. I haven't been in a church ...Christian or Catholic or Mormon (I have mormon relatives) where luciferians hadn't infiltrated or even headed those churches. Yet, the non-denominational church where I experienced SRA (covertly) ...being pastored and staffed by cult ....had their ties right back to the Vatican and the Jesuit black pope. It was that pastor who escorted me to that personal meeting with the black pope when I was a child. There is that undercurrent of the Babylonian system that runs through all of this.
@APAK
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JohnPaul
Soldier of Jehovah and Christ
You were a victim of these things? What is SRA? I know MK is MK Ultra correct?
It's odd I never got tagged as being 'mentioned' in my alerts. I just so happen to read your latest posts here.
On subject....I agree that this evil has been going on for centuries and it has not abated today. In fact I believe it's on the rise today. And it is outside the secret societies and those hidden within some churches.
Yes, I was born in by (masonic & illuminati) bloodline.
SRA is satanic ritual abuse. It goes hand in hand with MK Ultra. Most, if not all, MK victims have undergone SRA. But not all SRA victims were subjected to MK.
JohnPaul
Soldier of Jehovah and Christ
Wow that’s crazy how did you escape? I’ve heard of MK Ultra Kittens referenced in the movie Eyes Wide Shut.
You were born into it, that means your parents are part of it?
Yes, my parents and relatives were part of it. My main programmer was Lt Col Michael Aquino. I am related by bloodline to both he and his wife ....
There have been so many movies with references to MK Ultra. As far as "kittens" that is in reference to a type of programming called beta programming. That would be only one aspect of many in each person's programmed system. MK victims are traumatized from birth (and often from the womb, as I was) to purposefully shatter the mind of the child, and create alter personalities. Those alter personalities will be molded (through trauma-based mind control) to hold certain jobs. So there will be beta (or kitten) alters, and others such as delta alters whose jobs may involve k*lling ...hits, esp*onage, spying, etc ....or other alters (in the same person) who are trained in remote viewing, and alters who are used in ritual ....the list is extensive.