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Understanding MPD/DID & SRA/MK

Discussion in 'Addiction & Recovery Forum' started by TLHKAJ, Sep 23, 2020.

  1. TLHKAJ

    TLHKAJ Well-Known Member

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    Your words are just fine... God bless you
     
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    I didn't notice this either, not until @TLHKAJ tagged me in response to what you wrote. I'm thankful for that because it took a bit of searching to find your post.

    The alter wasn't addressing my fellow survivor, but I'm assured you know that by now. There was a time when I was ashamed of his fury and sought to suppress him whenever he sought to step forward... but then I listened to him and realized whom he was addressing. I then felt ashamed for imprisoning him in the same fortress I had languished in myself.

    Whom is he addressing?

    The false.
    Deceivers who preach their form of godliness;
    Hypocrites in love with the sound of their own voice;
    Unrighteous judges who seek to inflict their godless churchianity not only upon us, but upon anyone who falls into their grasp;
    Liars who claim they speak for the Lord when they do not;
    Liars who say they believe us when they do not;
    Liars.

    I will not imprison him any longer, nor will I be ashamed of the fury he experiences toward the liars who did unspeakable things to us all. Liars are an abomination.
     
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    Yes, I understand that now.
     
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    truthquest Well-Known Member

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    Thank you Wynona.

    There are many children who are having these things done to them. I would ask Christians to remember them in their prayers.
     
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    No, I didn't always remember it. I wasn't supposed to remember it because they didn't want me to.
    My alters told me a lot of things. Nobody else did. I should also mention that many memories came from flashbacks and nightmares.

    There are things that I've always remembered though. All kinds of abuse from my mother, father, stepfather. Abuse while in foster care including sexual abuse. I remembered all that. But when it comes to SRA, I didn't remember that until I was in my late fifties. And as I said, those memories came from flashbacks, nightmares and things that my alters told me and showed me.

    There are certain triggers that can cause flashbacks. For example, one day I heard my neighbors shooting guns. I started shaking and I closed all the windows in the house and closed the doors. I didn't know at first why I reacted that way. I didn't know why it upset me so much. Then I remembered how my stepfather would chase us with his shotgun in the woods and shoot at us. I have a hard time when I hear fireworks too. Fourth of July is a nightmare for me.
     
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    truthquest Well-Known Member

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    I would say don't be afraid to share things that really bother you. Everybody is not the same and have different traumas and different kinds of abuse. It helps to talk about it if you are comfortable with talking about it. Especially if you find it hard to live with. If it keeps you from sleeping at night. If it gives you a lot of nightmares. If you have flashbacks that cause anxiety and stress and maybe even fear. If it makes you cry a lot. If it interferes with your ability to function and live a full and happy life.
     
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    IF there is MK, yes, until you deprogram and those parts of you are free, they will be able to be cued and used by their handlers for whatever purpose they choose. And that includes alters with End Times programming that is in place for the purpose of bringing in the Antichrist.

    What I would like to suggest is that you should try not fret or struggle over figuring out whether these things are a reality for you. Just take what IS there ...and has been there since way before you knew me, causing intermittent triggering and pain ...bring those to the Lord and ask Him to shine His light on them, and to show you the truth. Give Him the freedom to reveal anything that is hidden that you need to know.

    It's hard to do that without going into it with preset conclusions of what He will do or what the answers are. But just bring them to Him ... acknowledge they are there, bringing you pain, and ask Him for His truth and to reveal what is at the root of your pain. Pain always has a root.

    I know how you and I connected was really odd, because a member was taking your dreams and telling you that the darker tinted dreams were about me. I knew they weren't about me. They also weren't about that other person/member ....you know what I mean. God doesn't give us dreams about the lives of strangers we've never met. It's just strange to think God would give dreams and then someone comes along and "interprets" them and tells you that your dreams are about people you never met or knew existed.

    I knew from the beginning that those dreams weren't given to you for me or my benefit ....if those dreams had any bearing, they would pertain to your own life in some way. God speaks to me, and I do get dreams and visions. And nothing in those dreams were confirmed to my heart by Holy Spirit to be speaking to me personally.

    Yet, those dreams had dark tints and themes which as a survivor, I recognized right away. So my suggestion to you all along has been .....ask Him. I know it feels like detox not to take things like that to be interpreted by someone. But God has the answers you need.

    I can answer questions and I can pray ....but ultimately, you will need to know in your heart that God is able to bring you the truth because He wants you healed and free from the pain (regardless of what is at the root).

    I hope this was okay. If I said too much, please forgive me.
     
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    I don't think i was abused at all now.
     
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    *hugs*
    So all those things you have told me, you made up? ....because if you didn't make them up, there is no way those are not abuse.
     
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    The member here who interprets dreams told me that they believed your dreams were about me and then he got your permission to share them with me. (Or did he actually get your permission?? This is confusing.) Maybe he didn't get your permission at all when he said he did.....?
     
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    Anyway ....regardless of all of that ....the rest of my post I still stand by. Wherever there is pain and a sense of trauma, God's purpose is to bring truth and healing to it ....it doesn't matter if it was MK or not. The fact that there is pain and trauma of some sort warrants His attention and a need for resolution.
     
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    I probably made it up. Im crazy and mean
     
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    I don't believe for one half a second that you're crazy and mean....
     
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    ive been told i make things up to fit in with people and such.
    i feel like it happened to someone else not me.

    if his abuse was serious mom wouldnt tell him about my mental health.
     
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    Sparrow Alone (Lyric Video)
     
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    sorry im unsafe to everyone.
     
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    he never sold me and i never got into a situation at four where it was as detailed and much for a child such as prtending to have a child together.
    im really just an ungrateful brat who makes real victims feel unsafe and violated.
     
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    No matter if SRA or MK was involved or not, sis, the things he has done are not things a father should be doing to his daughter. Your mom is just as guilty by covering for him and blaming you. That's not how God designed mothers and fathers to treat their children. She's trying to convince you that a man touching his daughter sexually and verbally sexually harassing his daughter isn't serious and you're just mentally ill??! Wow, as a mother myself, I just don't get that. :(
     
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    You've never made me feel unsafe and violated. But I'm not going to force you or anyone to participate here.
     
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    i msut be mental cos i self injure in front of people.
     
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