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Then while you are drugged up, they will take you into a room and interrogate you. They will do that in a such a way as to get information about what you remember and who you've been talking to about it. You have to be careful what you say and not slip up and give too much information or say the wrong thing but being drugged up, it's hard to control what you say.
Yes, it must be at His direction.This ought to be discussed. Beware of unbelief because it comes in different guises.
The belief that nothing good can come of something is unbelief, so when the Lord produces water from a stone the blind cannot witness the provision of Almighty God.
The belief that something in particular always produces good is unbelief so when the Lord speaks and says, Turn to the left or turn to the right, the hard of hearing continue in error.
There is only one place to find ourselves: waiting upon the Lord and listening to His voice. If the Lord says, Do this, then we do it; if the Lord says turn from your way, then we turn from our way. The Lord has sent me to a hospital on more than one occasion. Did I balk, believing that the Almighty would never do such a thing? The Lord has spoken, saying I am sending you to this doctor... did I question Him?
No, but then I don't have a background in churchianity so this has never been an issue for me.
Ahhh, yes. I remember about a therapist, but I don't remember the other doctors. I believe you though. I'll go back and look.
Let me try to clarify what I mean. I mean something very specific when I say "main stream mental health SYSTEM.... That does not mean all psychiatrists or psychologists are all cult controlled. And it does not mean that God will never lead a survivor to a psychologist for help. He has, and He does. I'm familiar with some of those examples too. In one case, a psychiatrist was significantly used to provide very important relief from deprogramming confusion, and sadly that kind of help was completely unavailable to this person when she sought it from "spiritual " (church) sources. I'm talking about a system, not individuals....and none of the caution limits what God might do to guide any person to for healing. But we better be "led". The landscape of the "system that survivors are thrust into, against their will, by outsiders....is fraught with traps...
In your records. That makes me think of how I would be questioned by the nurse practitioner at the psych ward. I would try not to mention anything SRA related to her. I would focus on my family history of abuse including *****abuse and the abuse in foster care also including *****abuse. She would write down everything I said and later put it all into a computer. That became permanent record including the diagnosis that I was given, that would be permanent record too. She made it clear that it would always be permanent record and that I would never be able to change that. If I had known that ahead of time, I wouldn't have said so much. I guess I was naive to think that what I said was confidential and would go no further beyond me and her. But that's what I was led to believe beforehand.
legally it was supposed to be confidential for you @truthquest . you did nothing really wrong.
interesting. this year as im flooded and feeling more present..... and its not much more new memories....but being present and more aware. i felt like going to the hospital like i needed it. but right before that a lady i know who is a church addictions leader suggested that i get on meds or maybe go to the hospital just cos i said i wouldnt mind if God let me die in my sleep. as if there is something wrong with that. wanting to die but choosing to still live is actually sane and healthy.
I hope your mother doesn't have power of attorney over your medical decisions.my cousin did have an abusive incident with me but it wasnt prolonged from what i remember. what i told them was pretty harmless then rather than if i accidntally had spoken up now. i was much younger then.... still an adult but i was convinced to let my mother have my health info.
at our family doctor she had it signed that she would make my health decisions in emergencies. they had me update it and i removed her. not sure if it worked.
i feel bad talking bad about my family this because i feel im going back into denial and "wow what happened again?" my memories turn unclear.
my cousin did have an abusive incident with me but it wasnt prolonged from what i remember.
if we're smart....and you are smart
I have felt so overwhelmed that I prayed to die so many times. I felt like I was up against something that I couldn't possibly defeat. But we can because God is with us and will give us the strength to overcome anything. It reminds me of the story of David and Goliath. David defeated Goliath because God was with him. When I think about that, I raise my head up high and I say, I will not be defeated and I will not give in. No retreat and no surrender.interesting. this year as im flooded and feeling more present..... and its not much more new memories....but being present and more aware. i felt like going to the hospital like i needed it. but right before that a lady i know who is a church addictions leader suggested that i get on meds or maybe go to the hospital just cos i said i wouldnt mind if God let me die in my sleep. as if there is something wrong with that. wanting to die but choosing to still live is actually sane and healthy.
but ever since then i struggle more with self harm again. if people just see me as mental and dont want to get to know me, then....
i never did go to the hospital since maybe 2015.
mom wanted to call an ambulance last week and i grabbed her legs....
Could i be lying? That's what really torments me. If "he" was what i said "he" was someone else could have said so after i did.
This is precisely what needs to take place. It's the difference between you and me, brother. I've witnessed the Lord move upon "outsiders" and so I view no one as an outsider, having been one myself. I still am in some ways and this topic reminds me of that truth now and then. So does this forum, and so do the pulpits and pews. You remind me of this, too.
So do the Christians I meet, like the small group who gathered in one of our offices earlier this evening. I looked after their needs and cleaned up when they departed.
Why should we be afraid or suspicious of anything? So it's a trap... so was the lion's den. So was the Sanhedrin, so was Pilate, and the same could be said about the day we were born into this world. The truth is hard because the Lord Himself will lead us into our every fear and we shall see each one come to pass. This was the word of the Lord spoken by His servants whom He sent many years ago:
My every fear would come true. I would be cast out; I would be rejected, and I would wander without a place to rest my head like the Son of Man before me, for the servant is not greater than his Master. I would die with Him and be buried with Him, and on that day when the Lord called me forth nothing would be the same again.
This was the prophecy and every word was proven true. It came to pass over 25 years worth of suffering, deprivation, homelessness, poverty, and hardship. I was defeated and dead but the Lord raised me up and declared, As I have overcome this world, so do you. I walked in the fire and He gave me a mantle of white to wear.
So what do I really fear? Hurting you. The truth is hard and what we endure is even harder and so the Lord brings you before me and declares,
Face fear as you have many times before, My son. Is it such a hard thing? Just as you walked in the fire and were not harmed, so you must walk in the fire again. It is your place to overcome.
Of course it's a trap.
But He is growing me in time..
I think I understand why you feel that way.
