Thank you for sharing this, @TLHKAJ . I used the content of your post to identify what applies to me. I have to do this because of accelerated switching... I come and go. The greater the stress, the more often switching takes place.
A lifetime of abuse; a lifetime of problems
*Distrust (In the first year of life, an infant determines whether the world is a safe place or not.)
*Self rejection & self-hatred
*Fear, anxiety, & phobias
*Difficulty with relationships (I can't keep friends for very long)
*Difficulty with authority
*Difficulty keeping a steady job
*Health challenges
*Lack of, or difficulty bonding (Cults forbid some bonds, and foster bonds with programmers and handlers.)
Here is a partial list of SRA symptoms:
*Sleep walking, nightmares, insomnia, and sleep disturbances
*Spiritual attacks - often at night (always at night)
*Panic attacks, anxiety, phobias (drowning)
*Headaches
*Frequent crises, emotional rollercoasters - depression, anger, anxiety
*Noticeable demonic interference (more like opposition)
*Suicidal ideations (past)
*Hearing voices inside the head (alters) (very frequent, speaking as the presenter)
*Fear around torturing or killing animals or people
*Dissociation
*PTSD (severe)
*Aversion with violence (makes me physically ill)
*Attraction to movies with violent content (ironic considering my aversion to violence)
Fascination with Star Wars, etc
Added: attraction to metal music
Questions to ponder:
1. Do you remember the first 10 years of your life? Consider large memory gaps. (missing time)
2. Does your handwriting change between print to cursive? Or perhaps, does your handwriting look different at different times? (yes)
3. Do you have "blue blood" (illuminati, masonic, or royal bloodlines), or famous people (such as presidents or actors, scientists, etc) in your family history? (a famous inventor, and many inventors who never achieved fame. Actors and musicians. Dangerous men, military men, spies, assassins.)
Common physical health issues with survivors:
*Physical pain - back pain/scoliosis, spinal/skeletal issues, headaches/migraines, nausea, body memories or pain/injuries with unknown origin
*Adrenal exhaustion (manifested as asthma, allergies, hormonal imbalance - high testosterone, MCSI & chronic fatigue, low neurotransmitter issues such as depression & insomnia) Adrenaline/rage
*Brain impairment - autism (high-functioning)
Common spiritual issues with survivors of SRA/MK:
*Difficulty believing or trusting God
-"Why did He let it happen?"
*Anger toward God (past)
*Uncomfortable in church settings
*SRA-Christian based programming
-Bible verses & hymns (etc) are triggers
-Candles & circles are triggers
*Abuse by a false Jesus (causing fear of Jesus)
*Reversal programming
-God is bad/Satan good (past)
*Shame & guilt from ritual involvement
The best medicine is a genuine experience with the real, true Jesus! (He is kind and merciful to me)
Mental health issues that often accompany SRA/MK:
*Depression (current)
*Anxiety and panic attacks (current)
*PTSD & hyper vigilance (current and severe)
*Suicide attempts (past)
@Shattered It took a lot of mental and emotional energy to go through that list. Good job! I remember the days when something like this took every bit of emotional strength I could muster amidst tons of switching and triggers. There was a time things would be so intense, I would go silent for a few days and my Christian counselor would email me to check on me. (We worked long distance, being over 2 hours apart.) It would often take me hours to complete an email reply to her, due to all the intensity inside.
So I know how much strength it takes to work through a list such as what I posted. Thank you for sharing!!