Trying to tell me God's in some way responsible for satan's attacks on me is blaming God for satan's rebellion and wickedness... you might as well be trying to tell me that when I was a kid my Mom wanted to take me to the child molesters house and cruised and watched while he had his way with me because she thought it might be good for me. Here's the deal... I don't care what anyone says... I won't believe that about my righteous Father because I know Him and His character and He wouldn't do that just like I know my Mom and know she wouldn't do that.
I've heard all that nonsense ever since I accepted Jesus and men tried to set themselves up as my teacher and I now know it's all lies because I know my Father... He delivers from the enemy... not to him...
Did paul have a messenger from Satan, that He called a thorn in his side? Did Paul pray 3 times for God to remove it, and the Lord said, "My grace is sufficient for you"?
Like it or not, bad things happen.
I don't believe that God is not in control 100% of the time. I also don't believe that God allows anything to happen without reason. I also believe that God causes all things to work for the good of those that love Him.
I don't know why God allows things such as child molestation or rape or abuse, but, the fact of the matter is, these things happen.
To be honest, I grew up abuseed and I was molested. I don't blame God one bit. Why it happened I have no idea. Do I think it was allowed to happen to me? Yes absolutely. God could've jumped down at any second and put an end to it. Why didn't He? Who knows. Maybe if nothing happened I wouldn't be the person I am today.
I can say, that because of the wrongs that have happened to me, I'm 100% more likely to do something when I see a wrong commited, or if I know a wrong was commited to someone, than most people around me.
I can say, that because of the wrongs that have happened to me, I'm a man of action and not a man of words. I'm not the type to sit idoly by saying, "Oh, how horrible."
Sometimes as bad as things seem, they happen for a reason. I have to believe that, and I do believe that, and I have experienced that.
Dude, no offense, and not to put off your life experiences, but, you're still very young. Sorry to pull the "I'm older card", but, it took a few more years of living for me to realize things like this. When I was younger I thought the same thing as you on this subject.