Grace and Peace to all,
Ok, my situation. I am a Christian dealing with the struggles of working in a toxic/ungodly workplace.
My workplace is filled heavily with Muslims and I face spiritual warfare frequently. I have been approached to "become a Muslim" or "attend a mosque" twice and I am getting sick of defending myself simply because I walked into the room. There is a feeling of "second class citizenship" for me in the workplace.
I am facing persecution on my job because I had a cross, a few bibles, and Voice of the Martyrs magazines in my car. I also had patches of the US Flag and a flag with a Cross in my rear windshield. That, apparently, was a problem.
Occasionally, I would read the Bible on my own time in the far end of the parking lot, away from anybody, but apparently that was a problem.
My car has been broken into, the driver seat has been vandalized, and my car has been vandalized.
Understand, I don't speak about my faith or evangelize at work because I don't believe in doing that on the job/on the clock. There is a time/place for everything. So I know this persecution cannot come from me being that "annoying/arrogant Christian type."
In addition, my job makes it hard to have a life or meet someone. I have a degree(I don't use it on the job because it's a useless liberal arts degree), but I'm currently going back to school online for software development to get better job prospects(and escape my current warfare situation) but the process is too slow. I don't know how much longer I can last on this job. I am barely holding on.
I have suffered bouts of prolonged depression because of it.
I'm almost 35 and I am a very single, very depressed, very joyless Christian trying to hold on to some sanity. My dreams of being a Godly man-Basics of a Godly Man — The 4 p’s -Dr. Voodie Bachuams 4P's have been blown to bits.
I am just so upset sometimes I cry alone. My youth is pretty much gone and I have nothing to show for it. No wife, no family, no children, just an aggressive workplace with aggressive coworkers. I just feel like such a failure. I make great money, but it comes with all this drama and strife. I feel imprisoned.
I used to be a happy/joyful person back in college. I miss those days though I was not Christian. I had friends/support systems and life, but now all I have is work(an aggressive workplace), no dating prospects, and getting older and older. I feel like I am just waiting to die.
This is not a life. I know God has more for me.
There is a type of affection(non-sexual I mean), that can only come from the opposite-sex and I desire this so much. I desire to be loved so much.
In my pagan days, I had a few girlfriends.(Just giving the facts. Not boasting. Not proud of this.) I came to faith back in 2008 while with my last girlfriend and it didn't work out for a lot of reasons. (Do not be unequally yoked. I know and I obeyed. She made it clear Jesus as not for her. So I obeyed, but I still miss/love/care for her. I still pray for her salvation. I want to see her in the Kingdom.)
I'm empty. Just me alone with my thoughts and all this workplace-aggression. I want to quit, but I need the money to live and I don't have another way currently to match the income. Or at least be in the ballpark. (It's a union job)
I just want a better job, a good church, and, god-willing, a godly wife that we may grow old(and in sanctification) together.
I feel that I am missing out on life. I have lost contact with old friends. (Some of whom are female and married, so I would not be appropriate to continue such friendships.) I have lost contact with my male friends because of jobs, moving for jobs, or getting married.
Here I am. Trying to figure out why(according to election. I'm reformed) my life is going this way if, indeed, I am Christian.
I have met women, but those so-called Christian women want sexual compromise. I will not. So I am still single.
If that is the case, I might a well run back to my ex. At least I actually want to be with her. (Just making a point.)
Not to mention, I hate my job, so that will only lead to an unhealthy situation if I get married. (You can only hide your disdain but for so long.)
I'm 34 and I have nothing to show for it.
Dr. June Hunt says we all have 3 basic needs.
A need to be LOVED, to have SIGNIFICANCE, and to feel SAFE.
I have none of these. I am undone on the inside.
Any advice?
Ok, my situation. I am a Christian dealing with the struggles of working in a toxic/ungodly workplace.
My workplace is filled heavily with Muslims and I face spiritual warfare frequently. I have been approached to "become a Muslim" or "attend a mosque" twice and I am getting sick of defending myself simply because I walked into the room. There is a feeling of "second class citizenship" for me in the workplace.
I am facing persecution on my job because I had a cross, a few bibles, and Voice of the Martyrs magazines in my car. I also had patches of the US Flag and a flag with a Cross in my rear windshield. That, apparently, was a problem.
Occasionally, I would read the Bible on my own time in the far end of the parking lot, away from anybody, but apparently that was a problem.
My car has been broken into, the driver seat has been vandalized, and my car has been vandalized.
Understand, I don't speak about my faith or evangelize at work because I don't believe in doing that on the job/on the clock. There is a time/place for everything. So I know this persecution cannot come from me being that "annoying/arrogant Christian type."
In addition, my job makes it hard to have a life or meet someone. I have a degree(I don't use it on the job because it's a useless liberal arts degree), but I'm currently going back to school online for software development to get better job prospects(and escape my current warfare situation) but the process is too slow. I don't know how much longer I can last on this job. I am barely holding on.
I have suffered bouts of prolonged depression because of it.
I'm almost 35 and I am a very single, very depressed, very joyless Christian trying to hold on to some sanity. My dreams of being a Godly man-Basics of a Godly Man — The 4 p’s -Dr. Voodie Bachuams 4P's have been blown to bits.
I am just so upset sometimes I cry alone. My youth is pretty much gone and I have nothing to show for it. No wife, no family, no children, just an aggressive workplace with aggressive coworkers. I just feel like such a failure. I make great money, but it comes with all this drama and strife. I feel imprisoned.
I used to be a happy/joyful person back in college. I miss those days though I was not Christian. I had friends/support systems and life, but now all I have is work(an aggressive workplace), no dating prospects, and getting older and older. I feel like I am just waiting to die.
This is not a life. I know God has more for me.
There is a type of affection(non-sexual I mean), that can only come from the opposite-sex and I desire this so much. I desire to be loved so much.
In my pagan days, I had a few girlfriends.(Just giving the facts. Not boasting. Not proud of this.) I came to faith back in 2008 while with my last girlfriend and it didn't work out for a lot of reasons. (Do not be unequally yoked. I know and I obeyed. She made it clear Jesus as not for her. So I obeyed, but I still miss/love/care for her. I still pray for her salvation. I want to see her in the Kingdom.)
I'm empty. Just me alone with my thoughts and all this workplace-aggression. I want to quit, but I need the money to live and I don't have another way currently to match the income. Or at least be in the ballpark. (It's a union job)
I just want a better job, a good church, and, god-willing, a godly wife that we may grow old(and in sanctification) together.
I feel that I am missing out on life. I have lost contact with old friends. (Some of whom are female and married, so I would not be appropriate to continue such friendships.) I have lost contact with my male friends because of jobs, moving for jobs, or getting married.
Here I am. Trying to figure out why(according to election. I'm reformed) my life is going this way if, indeed, I am Christian.
I have met women, but those so-called Christian women want sexual compromise. I will not. So I am still single.
If that is the case, I might a well run back to my ex. At least I actually want to be with her. (Just making a point.)
Not to mention, I hate my job, so that will only lead to an unhealthy situation if I get married. (You can only hide your disdain but for so long.)
I'm 34 and I have nothing to show for it.
Dr. June Hunt says we all have 3 basic needs.
A need to be LOVED, to have SIGNIFICANCE, and to feel SAFE.
I have none of these. I am undone on the inside.
Any advice?