Ah, not so. There's often an anointing on what you bring, dear brother. But I know how the devil at times makes us feel all kinds of things that aren't true in God's eyes....but the Lord turns it around for good because He wants to heal us in the deep areas of our hearts where the Accuser accuses.....I think what we go through in life is tailor-made by God to bring those things up to the surface, into the light.
The Lord has taken so much away from my life that I used to rely on for self worth, identity, purpose, etc, that sometimes I feel overwhelmed at just being alive because it's as though I don't know how to "be" alive any more, and in those moments I draw near to God in deeper ways than previously, because I need Him more. I believe He is emptying us of ourselves in order to fill us with more of Him. It's as though we start to draw our life from Him more and more when there is nothing else left to draw our life from.....abiding in the vine in a deeper way.
I don't rely on self, or self worth, sister, in fact, I don't like myself and don't know what my purpose in life is--I was whole in my marriage to my dear, godly wife and in the ministry we were in there was a sense of purpose and "being alive" and sensed the presence of the Holy Spirit--since then, the ministry closed and lost my wife--as if I'm not empty enough of "self"
Guess God is doing something--small beginnings--and instead of letting my emotions get the better of me, since I am human and not a super duper holy joe--I'll encourage myself in Christ or be encouraged by Him.
I'm not being sarcastic here re the "holy joe" and I don't suffer from an inferiority complex--but reaching out to others is difficult, for me, in a social manner.
Let me be upfront with you, I'm not here seeking friends, but godly brothers and sisters that can help a fallen comrade, in this race to the celestial city.
I don't worry much re the demons, they can't touch me or influence me and I have an Advocate with the Father.
Again, this is not a place to give my personal testimonies or reveal my weaknesses.
I sincerely hope you understand what I'm trying to convey to you.
J.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Psalms 34:18
Praying for You
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalms 147:3
Brokenhearted
3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
Revelation 21:4
4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
Matthew 4:23-25
23 Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the people.
24 News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed; and he healed them.
25 Large crowds from Galilee, the Decapolis, Jerusalem, Judea and the region across the Jordan followed him.
Psalms 23
Your Daily Verse - Psalm 23:5
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
2 Corinthians 1:3-8
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Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,
4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.
5 For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.
6 If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer.
7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.
8 We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters, about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself.