A while ago I wrote a post asking if my faith could be saved. To summarise it: I used to be very close to God but horrible things that have happened throughout my life got in the way of it. I had a horrible life, I am stuck with a sometimes abusive father, people walk all over me, I have self esteem issues because of the bad hand I was dealt at life, I wonder why God didn't give me a better life or make me special in any way, my enemies always become successful both in anything they do against me and in their personal lives, and my faith in God is only hanging on by a thread.
This something I didn't add to the original post because it was already long enough: pretty much the only things holding me to Christianity is that I believe what the Bible says is true, I find it commendable that God will restore everything, and I can't risk not going to heaven because I want to meet the children my ex-girlfriend miscarried (I know, that sounds like not a big deal, but it was a tragedy to us).
I know the Bible says to forgive our enemies, but that is something that I simply cannot do. I have been wronged by several people who not only get away with what they have done but also continue to lead happy lives. I know what I am about to say might sound horrible, but I kind of feel like Jesus wasn't being fair by telling us to forgive our enemies.
So that brings me to the title question on how to forgive God. I refuse to forgive the people who have hurt me and continue to hurt me. Not only am I angry at them, but I am angry at God for letting them hurt me and not punishing them (and from my warped perspective, blessing them). I am also angry about, as I said before, the horrible life God forced on me. Even though I will not forgive them, I feel like the only way to go back to the way things were is by forgiving God.
This something I didn't add to the original post because it was already long enough: pretty much the only things holding me to Christianity is that I believe what the Bible says is true, I find it commendable that God will restore everything, and I can't risk not going to heaven because I want to meet the children my ex-girlfriend miscarried (I know, that sounds like not a big deal, but it was a tragedy to us).
I know the Bible says to forgive our enemies, but that is something that I simply cannot do. I have been wronged by several people who not only get away with what they have done but also continue to lead happy lives. I know what I am about to say might sound horrible, but I kind of feel like Jesus wasn't being fair by telling us to forgive our enemies.
So that brings me to the title question on how to forgive God. I refuse to forgive the people who have hurt me and continue to hurt me. Not only am I angry at them, but I am angry at God for letting them hurt me and not punishing them (and from my warped perspective, blessing them). I am also angry about, as I said before, the horrible life God forced on me. Even though I will not forgive them, I feel like the only way to go back to the way things were is by forgiving God.