Mink, kindly refrain from victim blaming, whether me or anyone else
The simple fact is that there is no point in anyone becoming a Christian if all that will happen is they get attacked by Satan (actually this started happening before I self baptised) and other Christians are perfectly fine with it. Well I am not. Nobody should be attacked by Satan whether Christian or not. Screw him and let us out.
Oh, stop. No one is "victim blaming". Sheesh.
In all honesty Apache, you came here because you were looking for an answer. WHY oh WHY did God choose to unleash satan upon you once you self-baptized, after ALL YOU'VE DONE, like caring for a barking dog for 10 years, and let other Christians 'slide'?
You said yourself that not ALL Christians experienced what *you* experienced. What I tried to propose to you is that they may have experienced worse than
you got. But you're so wrapped up in the "poor ME" stance, that you can't see that.
I don't WHY Apache, but I get a 'feeling' about you. Your 'journey' is JUST beginning. And I 'feel' that after some time has passed, you're going to be a strong asset in the Christian community.
While you claim that "nobody should be attacked by satan...", where is THAT written? Why not?
This whole Christian life is a test. Not a test because God doesn't know the outcome, but because WE don't know. I can decide to be a Christian, but what does that even mean? Does that mean I'll never suffer from another hardship again? Did you self-baptize because you figured if you did, that God would 'smile' upon you?
Jesus told us that if we persevere through the end (of our lives) we will be saved. He NEVER said that there wouldn't be any hardships during that time.
Sorry Apache, but I don't see you as a 'victim'. You're 41/42 years old, and because you don't have what you think you 'deserve'...after being through the non-stop barking dog for 10+ years, you seem to think that you're "owed" the 'good life' by God.
Maybe change your attitude, and things will fall into place...
Then again, you won't. As long as you believe that God "owes" you...