@2bme .....I too wondered about that statement....
“If I decided for some reason to re-believe in Jesus”....because I’d like to know what you believed about Jesus in the first instance, and why you decided to abandon what you once believed?
I can see that you are a “seeker”.....something that is vital, because if you have the right heart motivation, you will “find” what your heart is looking for....God will see to it. (John 6:44; 65)
I was raised in Christendom and in my late teens and early twenties, I abandoned the “church” system in search of the Creator I knew was out there somewhere, but whom I never found in “church” or in the rest of Christendom for that matter. After some investigation in other denominations, I found them to be basically all the same, just under different banners and with no end of disagreements and blatant hypocrisy. Nothing in me saw that system as “Christianity”....nothing rang true....all my questions remained unanswered. I cannot do blind faith.
Losing my father at a young age was the catalyst for me to find the God of the Bible, and ask my questions without being made to feel like I was doing something wrong. There was so much I wanted to know, but the church had no answers....so I explored other faiths, non-Christian faiths, and found them all steeped in idolatry or a mysticism that made me feel uneasy.
I wanted to know God as the Bible presented him, and I wanted to find his true worshippers who taught only the Bible, not the flawed doctrines I was raised with in the fragmented and confused church system. If God’s spirit is so powerful it should promote unity.....that was entirely missing.
I turned to evolution to answer my questions, thinking that perhaps God used evolution in creation, but the more I studied it, the more I saw everything it presented was backed up by nothing but supposition and suggestion, just like the church did. There was no solid evidence for anything....but the one thing it did teach me about, was the evidence of design in nature. Logic told me that where there is design, there must be a designer.....a Creator with wisdom and power beyond human comprehension.....but where would I find this Creator? As time passed, I despaired of ever coming to know him, not just as a “Character” I read about in the Bible, but on a personal level, as the Father Jesus presented him to be.
Then one day, there was a knock on my door...and He found me. It changed forever the way I viewed who he was, because someone who had also had a similar experience, taught me how to study the Bible....not church theology.
Bible study was an amazing experience, opening up answers to my many questions...solid Bible based answers and I have never looked back. The more I learned, the more I wanted to know, and the answers just kept coming until I had a “big picture” where all the pieces fit......with no contradictions and with others who were just like me....hungry for the knowledge that changes the way we view God and his Christ.
No ‘hocus pokus’....no speaking in tongues, no supernatural experiences.....just solid Bible truth that exposes the lies and hypocrisy....it was life changing.
Jesus said “you will know the truth and the truth shall set you free”....I know what that means now.