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@Riven find a church that is more in keeping with a reverent style of worship. I also like that type of quiet, reflective style of worship. It helps me to sense God's presence more.
I feel nothing. I'm apathetic towards most things today. I miss getting excited for things. The novelty of life has worn off. Maybe that happens when you're in your late 30's and your family has broken apart.
It's hard to care anymore about any damn thing. Much less reading the bible or praying to a god that may or may not be listening. So I drink and engage in other activities that make me feel at least something.
Are you suffering from depression? Usually feeling nothing is depression. Also alcohol is a
depressive, so it won't make you feel better.
Riven perhaps you should try to actively count your blessings. Think on things, even simple things like seeing, walking and hearing are blessings to be appreciated.
I wish I could walk like I did before, instead of being homebound. And I am alone with only two neighbors that check in on me about once a week. But I always pray the Lord to give me strength and help me to do what I need to do. And the Lord has helped me. So I am very grateful.
No. Why do you think I post here all the time?
Riven you confessed that you were a Christian about Good Friday this year. Don't turn away from Christ. You need to pray and get into God's Word so you can learn what He promises you. You can't know someone unless you get to know Him...that means reading or listening to God's Word the Bible.
When you pray tell the Lord you feel apathetic or whatever else you feel. That is the way to communicate with God.
And even if you read just a few verses at a time, please do that. Or listen to Blessfully for the audio of the Bible.