@amadeus
You know I do look back in my past and there is one time in my life for nearly a year that stands out as a real failure to my God, my savior and my family. It was when I was already in a slow race to the bottom where I stopped acknowledging God and Christ in my life; although I never gave up my faith. I was under personal pressure and I tried my way to regain my worth and life again. I just took my savior for granted and shoved him in the corner at that time. I had no time to talk, I was under pressure and I needed to fix it all, myself. I needed to act, alone, I thought.
I tried to play god then and fell as sharp as the sharpest decline in the stock market. What happened, what possessed me? I was not myself.
This ordeal tested me beyond my understanding and then I began to awaken my faith in God and I wanted to get back to ‘normalcy’ as soon as I slid, and I even slid further until it was over. I tried to gain stability and I could not get the peace I wanted because I was still offending my family. I never lost faith in God, although my sins were highlighted to Jesus in bright lights. Not until I reconciled with God and others, on God’s terms, did I realize he executed a rescue plan for me and my family. He never let me ‘go.’ I realize he really loves me in my many tears of both sorrow and then joy. He was in love with me and I in him through the spirit of my savior.
Your life today amadeus is filled with Christ, I am guessing yes! You ‘came back’ from your previous experience(s) because of you, or really was it of God? I would bet the latter being born-again myself, as I know you are also from your writings.
Based on this surface analysis, you were genuinely baptized in Christ and you have his life in you, regardless on the measure of faith you have today. I believer you can never be ex-communicated by God once you accepted the free gift of life on God’s terms. He accepted and chose you.
Now there may be a chance you were never a true believer many years ago and now you are. I would not know this. I do know that if you have the spirit today, you have salvation and you are not to dwell on sin even those you still consider grave or very pivotal in your life.
Remember God does not convict a believer of sins, he corrects them. He wants you growing to perfection.
I must be honest and admit that my ordeal I spoke of above took me some years to understand and dismiss in it completely out of my mind because I’m BORN AGAIN and it has spiritual meaning. The old man and the world still wants the credit, and both are dead. God knows you better than you know you, same goes for me.
That Hebrew passage Heb 6:4-6, I believe that may bother you is really about a fence sitter that TASTED the spirit of God in their lives and heard his words and about eternal life. They never committed or ATE from the vine. These folks were taste testers of the Spirit and the word and eventually didn’t buy into the spiritual product of life that it offered. They were still under a death sentence and went back into their natural state or ‘fell away’ from what the spirit had to offer. They chose again the spirit of the world and self - soul mates of death!
(Heb 6:4) For as touching those who were once enlightened and tasted the heavenly gift and were made partakers of the Holy Spirit,
(Heb 6:5) who tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come,
(Heb 6:6) but then fell away- it is impossible to renew them again to repentance, seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame. (ALL NEV)
Bless you brother, and I love your words as a man of God
APAK
You know I do look back in my past and there is one time in my life for nearly a year that stands out as a real failure to my God, my savior and my family. It was when I was already in a slow race to the bottom where I stopped acknowledging God and Christ in my life; although I never gave up my faith. I was under personal pressure and I tried my way to regain my worth and life again. I just took my savior for granted and shoved him in the corner at that time. I had no time to talk, I was under pressure and I needed to fix it all, myself. I needed to act, alone, I thought.
I tried to play god then and fell as sharp as the sharpest decline in the stock market. What happened, what possessed me? I was not myself.
This ordeal tested me beyond my understanding and then I began to awaken my faith in God and I wanted to get back to ‘normalcy’ as soon as I slid, and I even slid further until it was over. I tried to gain stability and I could not get the peace I wanted because I was still offending my family. I never lost faith in God, although my sins were highlighted to Jesus in bright lights. Not until I reconciled with God and others, on God’s terms, did I realize he executed a rescue plan for me and my family. He never let me ‘go.’ I realize he really loves me in my many tears of both sorrow and then joy. He was in love with me and I in him through the spirit of my savior.
Your life today amadeus is filled with Christ, I am guessing yes! You ‘came back’ from your previous experience(s) because of you, or really was it of God? I would bet the latter being born-again myself, as I know you are also from your writings.
Based on this surface analysis, you were genuinely baptized in Christ and you have his life in you, regardless on the measure of faith you have today. I believer you can never be ex-communicated by God once you accepted the free gift of life on God’s terms. He accepted and chose you.
Now there may be a chance you were never a true believer many years ago and now you are. I would not know this. I do know that if you have the spirit today, you have salvation and you are not to dwell on sin even those you still consider grave or very pivotal in your life.
Remember God does not convict a believer of sins, he corrects them. He wants you growing to perfection.
I must be honest and admit that my ordeal I spoke of above took me some years to understand and dismiss in it completely out of my mind because I’m BORN AGAIN and it has spiritual meaning. The old man and the world still wants the credit, and both are dead. God knows you better than you know you, same goes for me.
That Hebrew passage Heb 6:4-6, I believe that may bother you is really about a fence sitter that TASTED the spirit of God in their lives and heard his words and about eternal life. They never committed or ATE from the vine. These folks were taste testers of the Spirit and the word and eventually didn’t buy into the spiritual product of life that it offered. They were still under a death sentence and went back into their natural state or ‘fell away’ from what the spirit had to offer. They chose again the spirit of the world and self - soul mates of death!
(Heb 6:4) For as touching those who were once enlightened and tasted the heavenly gift and were made partakers of the Holy Spirit,
(Heb 6:5) who tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come,
(Heb 6:6) but then fell away- it is impossible to renew them again to repentance, seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame. (ALL NEV)
Bless you brother, and I love your words as a man of God
APAK