I know what you mean - I read that there are pastors who aren't even spiritually regenerated - so they obviously teach the bible from the flesh.
I'm questioning everything that I had previously thought and why - I think it's sometimes hard to know what choice to make without God's direct guidance. The verse comes to mind "work out your salvation..." - I don't know if it applies but I think that it must be part of growing as a believer to struggle with applying Scripture.
I prayed and the point I got to was that my earlier decision didn't sit well with me after I made it. I'm afraid if Christians turn the other cheek too much - like someone had said earlier - it actually promotes corruption even more. The corrupt court lawyer learned that she could abuse her position and the corrupt probate lawyer learned that he could use his connections to steal money that he wasn't entitled to. So I don't know if I made the right decision but I went with what I was comfortable with.
I'm older but it seems like years ago we expected representatives to be honorable and today we're used to them being dishonorable.
I appreciate everyone's input.
If you wouldn’t mind me saying so I see a real desire after Christ and knowing Him, His truth and righteousness in your post. As I’m sure you know, that desire after Him, is, your “Christ in you” since you have that, you have that that is necessary to bring you into all truth and all growth. So (as I’m sure your aware) give heed to this new life in you with all its whisperings and directions, for it is this desire in you, given full freedom to grow, is that that will present you before Him so you might get your abundant welcome.
So yes, you are being a “doer” of the word by struggling to work out your own salvation, which is our proper duty.
So as a fellow believer, I encourage you in your search and walk after Christ. So be blessed as you continue to feed your personal relationship with Christ. For in that relationship will all truth be found. And these set of circumstances God has set before you will, in time, be made to bring forth the peaceable fruit of righteousness and a increase of Christ living His life in and through you.
Be blessed most loved one of God, Not me