you think i am not born again bc i do not believe the resurrection happened the way it was written?
No, we expect you to be a degreed and experienced Christian as soon as you are raised out of the water at the baptismal.
Don't you think that would be pretty stupid of us?
After you accept Christ as your savior, your life is a journey....a walk with Christ. Walk with Christ...don't put your eyes on yourself, put your eyes on Him. Read the Gospels and learn the character of Christ.
Don't worry about your faith...that is looking at yourself. He saved you, you did not save Him, you do not possess the power to do that. Set your sights on Christ and walk with Him everyday and your faith will grow. Along the way He will show you the Way. That was the original name of Christianity...The Way...there is a reason for that. You have not "arrived" the moment you stepped out of the baptismal. We are all a work in progress but equal is the eyes of the Lord. Focus on the journey, the Christian life is matter of choices you make on that journey. Do your best to make the right choices....lol...knowing at times you are going to fail. As you get more experienced at doing the right thing, you will get better at it.
But knowing that as a Christian before you made your first right choice you were saved. The desire to make the right choices and actually making those right choices are a matter of applying Christ to your life. But still that is not what saved you, that is the Grace of Christ. Your successes and your failures are your walk with Christ, He is there to pick you up when you fail. Do your best and learn from your mistakes, that is all anyone can expect of you, none of us are perfect...lol...Remember that Christ loved us when we were yet lost.
Don't worry about faith. You do all this and your faith will grow and become stronger. That is the Way it is for all of us.