Who said anything about being in a place of many?Dear Eternally Grateful,
Being in the group of "many" is not the place to be. Only a "few" of the many are chosen for salvation in this age.
You appear to be in a group of 1.
Your make it up as you go.
That's not the way to go. that is not even the few..
Once again, I highly recommend you find a good bible believing body of Christ to become a part of. and let them teach you.