The issue here is my wife is a non believer who is slowly being drawn into god. I have been taking her and my son to church, and reading the bible nightly with them. She has been hurt in the past, and already has a ton of resentments against god. I'm trying to figure out if God is truly wanting me set my sons life, wife's life, and my life completely on fire so that there is true honest clarity between me and my wife. Or if god simply wants me to keep walking the narrow path with Jesus and grow stronger through him and let my sin stay burried. I have TRUE conviction and I have Genuinely repented. I am by no means trying to justify my sin. My wife would almost surely deny god and more than likely end our marriage immediately. I don't think my son deserves to only see his dad a few days a week if that because of one sin I committed and repented from.
I think you are fine. God has already buried your sin. Micah 7:19
"He will turn again, he will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of the sea."
Heb 8:12
"For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness,
and their sins and their iniquities will I remember no more."
And referring to John 8:1-11.
1 but Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.
2 At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them.
3 The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group
4 and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery.
5 In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?”
6 They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger.
7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.”
8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there.
10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
11 “No one, sir,” she said. “Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin
So had any of us been there, we would've seen our sins as well. Mary Magdalene was forgiven and admonished to sin no more. You have been forgiven, and are admonished, as we all are, to sin no more.
Perhaps our brethren here would do well to remember that part.
Your sin is buried.
You are free.
