does anyone know of any free online bible colleges or seminary's i could attted
Sadly, I know it is not at all what you want to hear, but if you don't commit to studying the Bible on your own, with prayer and guidance from the Holy Spirit, you will sell yourself so short on the understanding that you come away with.
The VAST majority of Seminaries and Bible Schools of all kinds will not teach you the Truth of Scripture at all; and it is more than likely that whatever measure of Faith you possess today will be greatly diminished by the time you have gone through their programs, if not entirely extinguished.
Pray for help with it, commit to it and take the time to study it out on your own at least once through before you go to learn about it elsewhere. Let God's Word be exposed to you in its purity before it is mangled and perverted to you through the worldly teachings of the blind and corrupt.
It took me 3 years to get through the Bible the first time, cover to cover. I wouldn't change my decision to do it that way for the world. I still read it daily and am keenly aware of all the False Teaching that is epidemic throughout all of Christendom today.
Trust God and His Word ONLY.
1 John 2:27
God bless.