I have questions to which i havent found the answers yet
You will without any doubt, receive answers. Many of them will contradict the rest, and it will be a rare thing to find two answers saying the same thing. So. Your task, after being inundated with both solicited and unsolicited assistance, will be to discern what to accept and what to reject. Most of them will quote scripture in support of their counsel/answers. So what you need to do is pray, fervently, sincerely, constantly, and with passion, but most of all, with faith. God wants you to know the truth. Believe that. And question everything you read. Compare with scripture. Make sure the scriptures quoted to you say what the person wants them to say. All here, including myself, are but mortal men and women, prone to error, proud, and arrogant. The real source of Truth is God. Look to Him at all times, even as you ask your questions, and as you read the responses. God may not choose to use anyone here at times, because their answers are not what He wants you to hear. Be patient, expect some interesting conversations, and don't give up. Even wrong answers can have some truth, so again, pray, pray, and don't stop praying.
KJV Proverbs 2:1-6
1 My son, if thou wilt receive my words, and hide my commandments with thee;
2 So that thou incline thine ear unto wisdom, and apply thine heart to understanding;
3 Yea, if thou criest after knowledge, and liftest up thy voice for understanding;
4 If thou seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid treasures;
5 Then shalt thou understand the fear of the LORD, and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the LORD giveth wisdom: out of his mouth cometh knowledge and understanding.
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