I'm 53, I have given up. Like Paul said "So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:7-9, ESV). So I expect my trial to be with me until the day I pass from this life to be with Jesus. It only makes me trust and look to the Lord even more for all my strength! I'm ok with this. I experience his love every minute of every day. His eternal Kingdom is forever! OHHHH I can't even imagine what it will be like! To see our Lord and Savior!