- Sep 1, 2016
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So like many of you probably know in Matthew 12:31 it is said “Therefore I say to you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven men, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven men.
And ever since i found out about that verse i feel like i've been constantly doing it. It is like this thing when you tell your self not to think about a pink bunny, you'll immediately will think about a pink bunny. So i've been saying horrible things about the spirit because i just can't control my mind. I've asked god for forgiveness for this many times and asked him to help me control my mind but it's not helping. I've seen many people online saying that what i did wasn't blasphemy because didn't mean it, or because i haven't seen the power of the spirit with my own eyes and then denied it because of arrogance (i feel like i haven't fully grasped the power and importance of the spirit yet) but what if they are wrong? what if the terrible things i said in my head where enough to make me fully lose the change to ever go to heaven. This thought really terrifies me, what if i'm going to hell and there is nothing i can do about it anymore?

And ever since i found out about that verse i feel like i've been constantly doing it. It is like this thing when you tell your self not to think about a pink bunny, you'll immediately will think about a pink bunny. So i've been saying horrible things about the spirit because i just can't control my mind. I've asked god for forgiveness for this many times and asked him to help me control my mind but it's not helping. I've seen many people online saying that what i did wasn't blasphemy because didn't mean it, or because i haven't seen the power of the spirit with my own eyes and then denied it because of arrogance (i feel like i haven't fully grasped the power and importance of the spirit yet) but what if they are wrong? what if the terrible things i said in my head where enough to make me fully lose the change to ever go to heaven. This thought really terrifies me, what if i'm going to hell and there is nothing i can do about it anymore?