My heart goes out to you as, your situation is dreary for sure. I won't give you platitudes as, you have either heard of them yourself or you have tried applying them.
Personally, I have been hanging by a thread and have some of the "feelings" that you experience. Makes for a "non-life really. But we cannot give up as He does hear us.
All I can say is don't give up, He's not a feeling and He does not always bring us out of our difficulties but, offers strength to overcome. Being a Christian is the hardest thing ever, in my book but, He IS faithful to bring us from point a to point b.
May God bless you big time, and bring joy into your life brother.
The simple truth is folks can choose to focus on our problems and what one thinks they ought to have and etc .
But MY JOY abounds in CHRIST . It simple dont matter what comes against me , THE LORD is with me
and i KNOW My END IS GOOD . This world has nothing to offer me , it has no hope , nothing that shall endure
BUT I KNOW OF A KINGDOM which shall endure and cannot be moved , A HOME for the lambs .
And this life is but a vapor but eternal life is forever . My hope comes not from what i have or dont have in this world .
ITS THE LORD and HIS wonderful mercy and grace in CHRIST that has given me all hope .
ETERNAL LIFE . That is all that will ever have mattered when its all said and done . AND its FOUND ONLY IN CHRIST JESUS .
I sure never earned it , i was a wicked vile pig . YEt the simple fact that GOD still in great mercy drew me to true saving ]
faith in CHRIST is all the reason I NEED to REJOICE IN HIM . Imagine if we were still lost and headed to perditon .
NOW THANK GOD FOR JESUS CHRIST and the mercy of HIS GRACE we are not longer heeded to the perdition we earned
BUT HAVE ALL HOPE FOR A GOOD END FOREVER WITH THE LORD . HOPE IN GOD and prepare for trials and persectuions
WHICH WILL BE MANY in this life . BUT REMEMBER THE HOPE WE HAVE IN CHRIST . NOW LIFT THOSE HANDS and PRAISE THE KING