Is it possible to get my faith back?

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Oh my gosh, you sound like Job…I mean, exactly like Job. You express yourself here like him. He’s definitely your brother.
Yes, "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him". I would think if God were slaying someone, it would not seem He would like him very much : /

I feel that way too though, at times, and that is one of the verses I hold onto. The one whom the Lord used to draw me to Himself (D.H. Hill, whose name I've taken for my screenname here) wrote that verse in a letter to his wife. It can really feel at times that God is slaying us. That's why it vital to trust in His word and lean not upon our own understanding--even should it feel in every way that the Lord is slaying us!
 
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Interesting @PossibleThrowawayAccount. I turned my life to God at about 27 years old. After that I lost my car, apartment, wife and children in a nasty divorce. I have mental illness that developed in my 20's which is normal for that. I ended up homeless. The Lord was with me when I was homeless and I felt closest to him then. I was beaten down pretty bad. Today I'm doing much better.

Looking back at my life I realized that the Lord delivered me from many near death experiences and accidents. He has always been there protecting me. He let bad things happen to me though. I still love him and it hurts. I reflect on Job's experiences and that he still loved God thru it all. And that is encouraging.

Being Christian does not mean life will be all successful and pleasant. If we think Christianity means that then I think we need to keep reading the bible.

Christianity is about loving God and our neighbors. It's always been about that regardless of what happens to us. And it makes for a better world. It can be heaven on earth if enough people are involved. It is a life that we can believe in.
Believe me, God never deals anyone a 'poor hand'. He only gives us what we need to cause us to grow closer to him, although it can often feel like a poor hand. But when you look at what other people have to go through you can count the blessings in your own situation.

We have been through tough times financially through redundancy when our child was just a baby. We never really caught up financially after that. But it was also a time of growing and learning to trust. We have gone though some pretty tough times in our marriage too and have come out the other side with a greater love and a stronger bond.

I hesitate to say this, @PossibleThrowawayAccount but you do sound as if you really do not know God very well. The tough times are times when he teaches us about himself if we are open to hear and learn. No leopard can change its own spots but God can change us. So don't rely on your own understanding or your own negative feelings. Let the helpful things people have said to you take root in your spirit and seek the indwelling of God's Holy Spirit.

Also I would suggest you speak face to face with a Christian who knows you far better than we do. May you grow strong in Jesus.
 
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Sorry for the long read. I made an account on this forum specifically to ask my fellow Christians for help. I hope none of this comes off as rant-ish, I posted this because I need help with my faith.

My life has always been a mess and for the past ten years my problems have been tampering my faith.

My life has always been dismal. I grew up with an abusive father who I am still stuck with, I have no self worth, I spent my entire life in grinding poverty, I have no hope in having any kind of future and there is nothing I can do to make things better. I am just average looking, I am not smart, I have no charm and I wish God had made me almost anybody else.

I grew up an atheist but converted to Christianity at 16 after surviving an "accident" (not sure if we can discuss those kinds of things here, but you get the idea). Even to this day I have nightmares and flashbacks about being in the hospital and I feel horrified when I think too much about it.

As much as I hated to be prideful, I considered myself to be a great Christian. I wanted to go from country to country preaching the gospel even at risk of my own life. I set aside 30 minutes a day to listen to an audio Bible and 10 minutes for prayer. Then I suffered a series of tragedies...

I had a girlfriend who eventually cheated on me. She made a heart felt apology and said that it meant nothing. We stayed together even though she was expecting. We planned our future together thoroughly. Halfway through she suffered a miscarriage and we broke up a few months later as we grew cold with each other. As odd as it sounds the children who weren't even mine are what anchors me to Christianity, knowing that I will be able to meet them someday.

I left Christianity for the first of many times almost ten years ago. To keep a long story short my family lost a legal battle against a church group that was responsible for our dog's death. I lost my faith in God and converted to Hinduism.

Years later I came back to Christ despite still being unsure and angry about the lawsuit. I have a controlling father who can be abusive at times. A few years ago he tried throwing my brother out of the house just for getting a job. We fled to my grandparents' for a few days until we thought he cooled down. He didn't. He became abusive towards my mother for no reason and began threatening her with everything from financial terrorism to murder. He was even abusive to my brother sometimes and eventually ended up taking all the money he had earned.

I got my first job shortly after and promised to free my family from the abuse. I only worked a month after a knee injury forced me to quit as I did not earn enough time off to heal. I haven't been able to work since and me and my family are still stuck with an abuser. He made it known he will not take us getting work lightly anyway so if I found something it would have to be something I can live on, but there isn't anything around here that pays good.

I used to be the owner of a thriving message board but it got shut down when someone who was banned for bad behavior complained and made false accusations about us to our webmaster. Really, that board was all I had and I felt like I have nothing now. I was also bullied by a rival board leader who get away with it because he was a work friend of the webmaster. I made a close friend on my board but lost contact with her and I miss her every day.

I am frustrated by being single. I wonder why God didn't make me gorgeous or charismatic. Why did he make me just average looking and dull? I see these hot movie stars and people fawning over them and wonder why I am not good enough.

There is something else that bothers me but I won't mention it as it seems marginal. All the same it makes me bitter.

I find myself doubting God and sometimes I foolishly blame HIM for allowing my problems to happen. Sometimes I genuinely think HE hates me and that HE makes bad things happen to me out of spite. No matter how hard I try to remain a Christian, my problems usually cloud my mind and I feel angry at God. I don't even pray anymore as I don't think God cares about me and I only sometimes acknowledge the Bible. I have my moments of feeling religious but they usually fade within an hour.

Will I ever get my faith back? Is it even possible at this point? Is there a way I can try to keep my faith?

Thanks for your patience in reading this long post and thank you all in advance for the help.
Jesus is reaching out to you but it sounds to me like you're ignoring him. I've been there myself. Trust me you're still on the right track. The more you inore him, the more he will bother you. What I did was I stopped one day & cried out "what do you want?" and he showed me the way. Read ephesians. I found it helpful. I hope that gets you started.







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Bow your head and ask Jesus the save you. Its easy. Your whole life will change and Jesus will change you.
the song "Just as I am" without one plea but that thy blood was shed for me. This song was written for us broken people.

Believe me; reach out to Jesus. Just tell Him you are sick of your life and that you need Him to save you. Jesus will answer you.
 

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In answer to the OP:

To start with, I would suggest a simple thought experiment:

"How would you go without faith altogether, if you were going to?"

The answer to that question should give you some insight, into what you trust, as a believer.
 

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Sorry for the long read. I made an account on this forum specifically to ask my fellow Christians for help. I hope none of this comes off as rant-ish, I posted this because I need help with my faith.

My life has always been a mess and for the past ten years my problems have been tampering my faith.

My life has always been dismal. I grew up with an abusive father who I am still stuck with, I have no self worth, I spent my entire life in grinding poverty, I have no hope in having any kind of future and there is nothing I can do to make things better. I am just average looking, I am not smart, I have no charm and I wish God had made me almost anybody else.

I grew up an atheist but converted to Christianity at 16 after surviving an "accident" (not sure if we can discuss those kinds of things here, but you get the idea). Even to this day I have nightmares and flashbacks about being in the hospital and I feel horrified when I think too much about it.

As much as I hated to be prideful, I considered myself to be a great Christian. I wanted to go from country to country preaching the gospel even at risk of my own life. I set aside 30 minutes a day to listen to an audio Bible and 10 minutes for prayer. Then I suffered a series of tragedies...

I had a girlfriend who eventually cheated on me. She made a heart felt apology and said that it meant nothing. We stayed together even though she was expecting. We planned our future together thoroughly. Halfway through she suffered a miscarriage and we broke up a few months later as we grew cold with each other. As odd as it sounds the children who weren't even mine are what anchors me to Christianity, knowing that I will be able to meet them someday.

I left Christianity for the first of many times almost ten years ago. To keep a long story short my family lost a legal battle against a church group that was responsible for our dog's death. I lost my faith in God and converted to Hinduism.

Years later I came back to Christ despite still being unsure and angry about the lawsuit. I have a controlling father who can be abusive at times. A few years ago he tried throwing my brother out of the house just for getting a job. We fled to my grandparents' for a few days until we thought he cooled down. He didn't. He became abusive towards my mother for no reason and began threatening her with everything from financial terrorism to murder. He was even abusive to my brother sometimes and eventually ended up taking all the money he had earned.

I got my first job shortly after and promised to free my family from the abuse. I only worked a month after a knee injury forced me to quit as I did not earn enough time off to heal. I haven't been able to work since and me and my family are still stuck with an abuser. He made it known he will not take us getting work lightly anyway so if I found something it would have to be something I can live on, but there isn't anything around here that pays good.

I used to be the owner of a thriving message board but it got shut down when someone who was banned for bad behavior complained and made false accusations about us to our webmaster. Really, that board was all I had and I felt like I have nothing now. I was also bullied by a rival board leader who get away with it because he was a work friend of the webmaster. I made a close friend on my board but lost contact with her and I miss her every day.

I am frustrated by being single. I wonder why God didn't make me gorgeous or charismatic. Why did he make me just average looking and dull? I see these hot movie stars and people fawning over them and wonder why I am not good enough.

There is something else that bothers me but I won't mention it as it seems marginal. All the same it makes me bitter.

I find myself doubting God and sometimes I foolishly blame HIM for allowing my problems to happen. Sometimes I genuinely think HE hates me and that HE makes bad things happen to me out of spite. No matter how hard I try to remain a Christian, my problems usually cloud my mind and I feel angry at God. I don't even pray anymore as I don't think God cares about me and I only sometimes acknowledge the Bible. I have my moments of feeling religious but they usually fade within an hour.

Will I ever get my faith back? Is it even possible at this point? Is there a way I can try to keep my faith?

Thanks for your patience in reading this long post and thank you all in advance for the help.
Your story is fascinating! While I was reading it,I felt I was reading about myself. I spent many years doubting and feeling bad about myself, until one day, I was so fed up with the same thoughts going through my head, I started doing research on Christianity. This led me to an American tele evangelist Dr Creflo A Dollar. Yes that is his name. He has a woderful video on youtube "overcoming doubt". It made everything fall into perspective and now I have a different way of seeing things. I would highly recommend you watch it. I still watch his sermons today. He's been about the only preacher who makes any sense to me. The turmoil you're experiencing is very familiar to me but now when I look back, I realise how much Jesus loves me and wouldn't let go of me. In my experience, He was calling me to do something but I didn't know what. I used to be very obstinant and Jesus was asking me to let go and rely on him without knowing what I was doing. It was very scary at first but everything started changing and improving. I'm still a work in progress but as the days go by, I keep my focus on Jesus all day and it gets easier. Now I feel so blessed, it's amazing. As you can see I rant a little myself!
I can only share my personal experience and how I overcame my problems. I hope this helps you. It's all about Jesus. He died so you could enjoy a wonderful life.




























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Bow your head and ask Jesus the save you. Its easy. Your whole life will change and Jesus will change you.
the song "Just as I am" without one plea but that thy blood was shed for me. This song was written for us broken people.

Believe me; reach out to Jesus. Just tell Him you are sick of your life and that you need Him to save you. Jesus will answer you.
Such words of wisdom!
 

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He only gives us what we need to cause us to grow closer to him, although it can often feel like a poor hand.
You may be right but I feel the opposite. What I had with God was perfect and all this stuff happened to me that makes me feel like he is pushing me away.

"How would you go without faith altogether, if you were going to?"
In a way I would still be a christian by definition. I would believe in God and what the Bible says, but I wouldn't participate in worship and christianity wouldn't play as big a part in my life as it once did.

I am always hoping somehow everything turns out, but I know it won't. It is unlikely my living conditions will improve and will most likely get worse as time goes on. I will always be bitter towards my enemies, no matter how much I like to think that someday I will forgive them or that I will receive justice.

I know I will never matter to this world or make anything of myself. I feel defeated by the irony that if I were someone I would be charitable and do what I could to help others. I can't though because I am powerless and cannot afford to give to charity which is something I wish I could do.

I feel defeated at this point and can't begin to think of why God would have given me a terrible life, or why he doesn't like me. At this point I think I should just try to accept that nothing is going to get better.
 
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You may be right but I feel the opposite. What I had with God was perfect and all this stuff happened to me that makes me feel like he is pushing me away.
I felt the same way when God made my perfect setup with asking for Sundays off and getting them, end. I could not understand why God wouldn't want me to worship with Him and His family more. It felt exactly like He was pushing me away from Him. He obviously does not want me to join in the worship service that often.

But we have to understand that we are not seeing things the way God sees them. Whatever we understand with our own minds, be it contrary to the word of God, is a lie. Let God be true and all men liars (from one of the epistles). Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding (from Proverbs). It will sound like a trite explanation and will not make it any easier, but that is what is going on. To trust in God is not at all a simple thing to do for a great many, many believers.

In a way I would still be a christian by definition. I would believe in God and what the Bible says, but I wouldn't participate in worship and christianity wouldn't play as big a part in my life as it once did.

You believe God is one--you do well. Even the demons do and tremble (James 2:19). It doesn't matter if you believe in God and what the Bible says. Acknowledgment is not faith. We must know God and be known by Him. If you do not want anything to do with Him, then look for fulfillment in this life. You will find none. This life will be over before you know it. Do not throw your eternal happiness away on the garbage that is life. You will regret it (and not on your deathbed but in eternity. Many non-believers are very satisfied with their lives and the choices they made on their deathbeds; it is after that that they realize they made the wrong decision).

I feel defeated at this point and can't begin to think of why God would have given me a terrible life, or why he doesn't like me. At this point I think I should just try to accept that nothing is going to get better.

Why do you deserve any better? Why do I feel that I deserve to have had my husband live with me for at least a good 10, 20 years like most other couples have and have had a happy long relationship with him? We don't deserve anything at the hands of God. Nothing less than eternal torment, which no one in this life has ever experienced yet, is what we all deserve. That may sound harsh and cruel but it's the truth. It's the only thing that makes sense for why you and a great majority of all believers who have ever lived have suffered. We are to be conformed to Jesus and in His life He suffered. Many will experience the same thing. We should strive to be like Paul who said in all things he has learned to be content, but many do not have this grace of God. I sure do not yet. It appears that you do not either. It is not the unforgiveable sin. We must be constantly repenting and turning to Jesus, clinging to Him in this harsh cruel life and trusting that when He finally calls us home, we will finally have the happiness we have long been without.

And some believer's lives are very happy. "Is your eye evil because mine is good?" (From a parable of Jesus). We should not be jealous of God's mercy to those to whom He shows mercy. We should be happy for them. But we cannot expect the same treatment from the hands of God; for His own eternally wise purpose, whatever hand we are dealt from Him in this life--should we love Him and are called according to His purpose--is the best one for us, no matter if it appears from our perspective in everyway to be one of the worst.
 

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In a way I would still be a christian by definition. I would believe in God and what the Bible says, but I wouldn't participate in worship and christianity wouldn't play as big a part in my life as it once did.
Then you are like almost every other believer: you have experienced faith and can not just let it go.

Start to set goals, give your love some room to grow - the good life is three score years and ten (70), have you reached that, yet?

Even a simple goal, like only ever drinking coffee on Thursdays, will help you break up the time you still have left,

Also, it may be that you have depression, perhaps minor, but still depression, for which a psychiatrist may help.
 

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A few days ago I had a bit of an eye opener of how bad things really are. Without going into too much detail I thought some of my enemies were trying to attack me again. I was honestly going to leave Christianity for good if they did/if they were successful. I know it sounds horrible but it made me realize that I am on my last leg with the Christian religion, given how God doesn't actually do anything to protect me or punish anyone who does wicked things to me.

As of right now, I don't think my relationship with God can heal because I am not able to heal from my problems as they still persist. I don't have any way of escaping abuse, my life hasn't changed, anybody who has treated me badly gets away with it and lives happily ever after, etc. Nothing is changing, it is like having a knife stuck in you; as long as the knife is in you, you cannot heal.

I tried reading a Bible the other day but couldn't get far because I felt like I was reading about someone who hates me. I also tried to pray but I am too angry at God to even talk to him. Yet at the same time I find any other theology unsatisfying.

Also, it may be that you have depression, perhaps minor, but still depression, for which a psychiatrist may help.
I am not able to go to therapy. I do not have health insurance and my abuser wouldn't let me.
 

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Don't bother with religion, it's pointless. Christianity is about Jesus; knowing him personally, following him not a set of religious rules and traditions. Jesus has never let anyone down. And if you try to read the bible without the help and guidance of the Holy Spirit you will not get very far with understanding it. it isn't up to you to heal your relationship with God, that is his responsibility but first you have to repent of your sin and ask Jesus into your life.

I can't remember if you told us how you were being attacked but it sounds to me as if you are possible 'under attack' from someone close to you. Don't give up on Jesus because he will not give up on you - trust him, learn to trust him. Perhaps read the gospels and ask the Holy Spirit to show you what you need to know.
 

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Looking around, I have found a few verses in the Bible that says God will deal with our enemies and that we shouldn't try avenging ourselves. Maybe it is just wishful thinking, but I like to believe that God will not only expose them (as I am not the only person they treat badly) but also condemn their actions on judgement day.

The problem of enemies is the big thing disrupting my faith. The second being the life I was given. I like to think that it will get better, but deep down I know it probably won't. If I knew I would get justice, even if it happens in the next life, that would satisfy me.

it isn't up to you to heal your relationship with God, that is his responsibility but first you have to repent of your sin and ask Jesus into your life.

That is wise.
 
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You seem to have trouble with people attacking you? (There is always the option to make a crime report if that is the case as well).

Jesus was brutally beat and murdered on a cross.

I’m sorry about whatever it is, but it’s your choice to seek God or not… faith is what pleases God and he rewards people spiritually who seek after him.
 
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Looking around, I have found a few verses in the Bible that says God will deal with our enemies and that we shouldn't try avenging ourselves. Maybe it is just wishful thinking, but I like to believe that God will not only expose them (as I am not the only person they treat badly) but also condemn their actions on judgement day.

The problem of enemies is the big thing disrupting my faith. The second being the life I was given. I like to think that it will get better, but deep down I know it probably won't. If I knew I would get justice, even if it happens in the next life, that would satisfy me.



That is wise.
As another poster mentioned if someone is doing something criminal I'd call the police. If not you probably should find a better place to live. I know that might be a tall order but its got to be a goal for your sanity. Later on it does start with forgiving of them one at a time, may take a life time but always strive for it. I pray that things get better for you.
 
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Looking around, I have found a few verses in the Bible that says God will deal with our enemies and that we shouldn't try avenging ourselves. Maybe it is just wishful thinking, but I like to believe that God will not only expose them (as I am not the only person they treat badly) but also condemn their actions on judgement day.

The problem of enemies is the big thing disrupting my faith. The second being the life I was given. I like to think that it will get better, but deep down I know it probably won't. If I knew I would get justice, even if it happens in the next life, that would satisfy me.



That is wise.


I suspect that you don’t even really know what a Bad Day “ IS”....... You ever visit a hospital burn center where people have been severely burned and their faces have been terribly disfigured for the rest of their lives ? Have you ever visited the Children’s Cancer Ward Of your local hospital......my brother had a young, beautiful girlfriend that slipped on a rug and got paralyzed from the neck down for the rest of her shortened, miserable life....and YOU think you got it bad?

I suspect that you know a little about Religion and Nothing about Christianity.....You sound like a man that is “ Trying “ to get Saved and Stay Saved.....God will Save NOBODY that is “ Trying” to get Saved——The “ Good News” is that God will Save ALL PEOPLE that are * TRUSTING* to be Saved......understanding That is the difference between Heaven and Hell.....

The Starting Point Of True Christianity is the Conviction Of Sin by The Holy Spirit( “ Nobody comes to God lest the Spirit draw him” , and that Spirit “ draws” people by the Conviction Of Sin ) —— until you truly realize that you are a Lost Sinner That is headed for a deserved Hell like a speeding bullet, you have not even entered the “ Starting Gate” Of Christianity......

You must Believe the Gospel Of 1 Cor15:1-4 in order to get Saved, this side of the Cross in this present Age Of Grace......You Must See that you have a Sin Issue Before God that Must be resolved....You get that Sin Problem resolved by Believing that Jesus Died for those Sins and that He rose from the dead...

The initiative for Salvation belongs to God —- Not you ......It was said of Lydia, “ the Seller Of Purple “ in the Book Of Acts , That God “ opened her heart” to the reception of the Gospel.....it’s no different for you ....I pray that God make you a “ Lydia” and also open YOUR heart.....that will get God's Spirit within you and that will be the Ultimate solution to the rest of your “ problems” .....You will be in my prayers....
 
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I suspect that you don’t even really know what a Bad Day “ IS”....... You ever visit a hospital burn center where people have been severely burned and their faces have been terribly disfigured for the rest of their lives ? Have you ever visited the Children’s Cancer Ward Of your local hospital......my brother had a young, beautiful girlfriend that slipped on a rug and got paralyzed from the neck down for the rest of her shortened, miserable life....and YOU think you got it bad?
And to add to that, soldiers in wars sometimes had lost both arms... I've heard criticism of this way of thinking, but in my own grief over losing my husband after such a short time together, it has really helped me (and I hope that my own story will make others love their own loved ones more preciously and not take for granted the time they have together--and I surely did not take it for granted. The criticism I've heard goes something along the lines of, so you will try to benefit yourself from other people's misery? If my own misery could help a person's life I will be thankful that some good can come of it, so I do not agree with the criticism).

Anyway, @PossibleThrowawayAccount , maybe thinking in this way can help you, that you really truly do not have it as bad as it can be. Like I said, it has helped me to still find a small amount of something reminiscent of the joy I had to think on such things as Gospel Believer has said and some other things like I've mentioned. God has dealt me a severe blow (from my perspective, just as Job recounts in his ponderings of the providence of God), but He still has given me many blessings.

Peace to you, brother. I pray you will ever walk more closely with our Saviour. Though at times we can't see it because we are so spiritually dull, He really is the only thing worth living for.

And yes, should your enemies not turn to the Lord, He will expose them and punish them before all on judgement day (a verse in His word says words to the effect of how the secret things will be exposed and another of how what is done in the darkness will be shone in the light; there's many others which indicate how on that day the enemies of God will be publicly condemned).

I have been guilty--since God knows my heart and I cannot hide my sin from Him--of hoping, when I hear of some of the cruel acts committed by some people, that they will not turn to the Lord and that I will have much joy in seeing them punished for their crimes. That of course is wrong because were it not for the grace of God, I would also have been punished (maybe not as severely as Jesus teaches that there are different levels of punishment), but it would not have gone well with me nonetheless.
 
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I have been looking on Amazon and there are a number of books about finding God again when you are in a 'wilderness'. My husband was once in that sort of place and a book helped him get back to God. I think it was called, 'Finding God in the Wilderness', but there are others. Books written by Christians can be really helpful.
 

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Hello brother,
My heart goes out to you as, your situation is dreary for sure. I won't give you platitudes as, you have either heard of them yourself or you have tried applying them.
Personally, I have been hanging by a thread and have some of the "feelings" that you experience. Makes for a "non-life really. But we cannot give up as He does hear us.
All I can say is don't give up, He's not a feeling and He does not always bring us out of our difficulties but, offers strength to overcome. Being a Christian is the hardest thing ever, in my book but, He IS faithful to bring us from point a to point b.
May God bless you big time, and bring joy into your life brother.
The simple truth is folks can choose to focus on our problems and what one thinks they ought to have and etc .
But MY JOY abounds in CHRIST . It simple dont matter what comes against me , THE LORD is with me
and i KNOW My END IS GOOD . This world has nothing to offer me , it has no hope , nothing that shall endure
BUT I KNOW OF A KINGDOM which shall endure and cannot be moved , A HOME for the lambs .
And this life is but a vapor but eternal life is forever . My hope comes not from what i have or dont have in this world .
ITS THE LORD and HIS wonderful mercy and grace in CHRIST that has given me all hope .
ETERNAL LIFE . That is all that will ever have mattered when its all said and done . AND its FOUND ONLY IN CHRIST JESUS .
I sure never earned it , i was a wicked vile pig . YEt the simple fact that GOD still in great mercy drew me to true saving ]
faith in CHRIST is all the reason I NEED to REJOICE IN HIM . Imagine if we were still lost and headed to perditon .
NOW THANK GOD FOR JESUS CHRIST and the mercy of HIS GRACE we are not longer heeded to the perdition we earned
BUT HAVE ALL HOPE FOR A GOOD END FOREVER WITH THE LORD . HOPE IN GOD and prepare for trials and persectuions
WHICH WILL BE MANY in this life . BUT REMEMBER THE HOPE WE HAVE IN CHRIST . NOW LIFT THOSE HANDS and PRAISE THE KING