I think you are not seeing the argument correctly. I may spend more time in the word than almost anybody...reading in 3 languages...learning to be biblically conversant in these. Most people only learn the bible in their own mother tongue.
So I am a great respecter of the words from God. It's just that the actual Person of God is even bigger than that. So then to limit God to a book is doing God a great disservice (I'm sure you don't really read my posts...but just react against them)
When the Lord is there...do I tell Him I'm too busy reading the bible so go away?
But we are talking about a situation where people have raised the bible to an idolatry...having no contact whatsoever with the God of the bible.
This isn't going to go over well, but since epi has been so brave, I will be too.
God took even my bible from me at one point. Every time I picked it up, I could not understand a thing and it was just a heavy weight to me.
It was very distressing to me. And at the same time He seemed to take the books written by dead saints that I had gotten so much from away from me too. AND at the same time I could no longer sense His presence.
It felt like being thrown into complete darkness and confusion. After a few years of constantly reading my bible and sensing His presence, to have it taken from me was very...distressing. But no matter how many times I tried to pick it up and read again, it was like a closed book to me.
I think this was many faceted. First, I had begun to read the bible to the detriment of an ACTUAL and growing intimacy and relationship with God. And it was the same with the other books I had come to depend on.
Secondly, I was experiencing God in a very base way, a physical way, goosebumps and a feeling of waves washing over me. I took that as meaning my time of reading and communing was fruitful and if I didn't experience His presence in this way, I thought it was all unfruitful.
I still, years later, have a hard time reading my bible a lot of the time. Trying to force the issue does not work. This is why most of the time, I refer to a verse I have read that He recalls to my mind but do not say what book or chapter it is.
Even yesterday, I wanted to compare the gospels and try to see why two of them seem to have a timeline discrepancy as to what happens first or later surrounding..."and after this the heavens will be shaken." I tried to look it up, but it was all a confused gobbledygook, as it often still is when I try to pick it up.
I am used to people not understanding. I mean, I barely understand it. And I'm used to just saying to people, you don't understand - it is GOD doing this. His hand is very heavy on me and I can NOT do what you counsel me to do, it doesn't work to try to force against His hand. In fact, it is impossible to force against what He is doing.
And through all of this, I have come to trust Him MORE, not less. I have come to lean on Him MORE, not less.
All I know is I am waiting for Him. He seems to move so slowly to a person stuck in time. And it seems sometimes it will go on forever this way. And yet, my trust continues to grow and my peace grows more and more. But mostly, when I talk about verses, its because He recalls them to me, not because I look them up.I've learned not to force against whatever it is He's doing to me and just wait.
And even now, when people will come here and tell me its not Gods hand heavy on me but is rather Satan preventing me, I know it isn't so. If it were Satan doing this, such good as has come to my soul would be impossible. I've been through all of the worries -
this is spiritual sloth, you are being punished for some sin, you're just being lazy and don't want to read your bible, etc, etc. And now, I just keep waiting and trusting.
Sorry that was so long. It might not be at all relevant to your thread except that I really understood you when you said you could, with great effort, keep moving at your work, but then God was behind. It would be as if Dot had tried to force you to back that truck up by yourself rather than help you. Or it would have been as if you still tried to go to work that day despite the flat tire and the workmen. It would have been kicking against the goads. Or letting other men convince you to keep trying to do so. And now I fear this entire post will sound like utter nonsense to everyone, but there it is.