God set me apart from the world. I am of His kingdom. This earth will pass away. I am called to be a light to share Christ with others in the world. Not live by the sword. I do my battles on my knees. And if there is something God wants me to do He will let me know.
We are in this world but not of this world. Strangers in a strange land.
We cannot be like monks who hide from the world spend all the time in contemplation and prayer.
Christ most assuredly was not of this world but he was out in the world working. Same with the apostles and every other saint who is lived.
Look what happened when Jonah tried to run away from the world.
The Bible clear the Saints have been in every walk of life and God blessed them for.
It is not easy. It is frustrating.
I am ready to go home after all these decades.
There is no such thing as prayer warriors in the Bible, meaning those who just pray and do nothing else.
I read your words but I also see you on this forum discussing issues.
Hang in there, it will be grand in the future.