You were last seen on Feb. 11, so I'm assuming you are still around.
Jesus loves you, even if your wife and kids left you, you lost your job and/or you don't have friends.
He is the Author of our faith, a gift that cannot be discarded.
Some have weak faith and the worlds troubles and tragedies are hard to cope with.
But listen, Jesus' faith is sufficient. If He begins a work in you, He will finish it. Suicide is the opposite of faith. It implies you do not trust God at all with your life and you don't approve of how He has delt with it.
Only the Creator gives life and only He has the right to take it away.
We are given the story of Job, who was tested beyond anything we have suffered. Of course it is only fair to say he had a close relatioshship with God to begin with, and that was tested.
But can still learn from his story. We are all put through many tests, we are chastised for our sins because He loves us.
Admit your sins and welcome His chastisements with thanks. Take responsibility for your previous actions that led to the state you are in; things didn't happen to you because you were such a loving and giving man. Accept it, give it to God to heal and move forward.
Ask for forgiveness and believe that it is a done deal.
This life is not going well for billions. The world is falling apart and so the future (of this world) looks grim for all of us. But we persevere, we dinish the race to receive the prize. You don't drop out the race and expect to win anything!
We look beyond this world to eternal life, perfection, new bodies and perfect love that we've only had a taste of. Focus on things above and get out of your despondency.
How? Stop focusing on yourself!
NOW TAKE THIS IN:
A famous psychoanalyst, Scott Peck, was asked this question: " If you were so depressed to the point of suicide, while knowing all that you know about the mind, feelings and human behavior, what would you do?" He responded: I would go out and help someone. After I finished with that person, I would find someone else and help them." By these continuous acts of unselfish kindness towards others, one forgets about how depressed they are about their own lives. This love for others heals you. The more selfish a person is, the more miserably unhappy he will be.
So get off your treadmill of rehearsing, "Woe is me" and serve others' needs - for your own good!