Nancy
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A bad thought flitting through your mind is not sinning, it is temptation. It is only sinning if you sink down into it rather than saying, help me Lord, my feet are slipping.
I'll be specific on one of those thoughts that have only a few times over the last 8 years. I have a next door neighbor who never cleans his house or yard. His yard is infested with rats and mice. His rats have been nesting in the back of my shed for years. They dug a rut from his yard right into my shed. He has not always been the nicest of guys...he eats bad food and is not healthy. The few thoughts were the same and only fleeting but: At times I wish he would keel over with a heart attack and they would destroy his house, I'm pretty sure. Then the condemnation comes even though I would instantly repent. I'm now far enough along to actually pray for him.
I tell people off in my mind, lol...it only brings condemnation down on myself because during my tirade (in my mind), I realize at some point that I am guilty of hypocrisy. Doubting His love for me. And, here is a horrid one that THANK GOD I no longer have flitting in my mind; the fact that Jesus paid for our sin-yet are we too not paying in a way by having to live a lifetime of sometimes hell on earth? Yes, seems pretty close to blasphemy, yes? I then (this was awhile back) realized the simple answer was that we still have to pay consequences on this earth for our decisions, and most of those consequences are due to the fact that we wanted to do it our own way, and we know where that leads. If only we follow His precepts, obey Him then our cup will be full!