Take care.

[Mayflower]

Im confused and i tend to poke where i probably am proven not to belong. Im evil and hateful

God can change this if this is how you truly see yourself, Lily. Do you want to see yourself differently? It takes work, and believing what God's Word says of who HE says you are, but that is something you will have to choose to believe and change. I would take scriptures of who God says you are and speak them over yourself constantly. I would acknowledge those feelings and work on replacing them with who God says you are if are a daughter of the King.

 

[April_Rose]

Sounds like Satan is bullying her again. I don't let him bother me anymore. For when it comes to him,.. I am the queen of mean.

 

[lilygrace]

God can change this if this is how you truly see yourself, Lily. Do you want to see yourself differently? It takes work, and believing what God's Word says of who HE says you are, but that is something you will have to choose to believe and change. I would take scriptures of who God says you are and speak them over yourself constantly. I would acknowledge those feelings and work on replacing them with who God says you are if are a daughter of the King.

I only have experienced God looking after others.

 

[Mayflower]

I only have experienced God looking after others.

You can experience God for yourself. His Word, love letter to us, is available to you right now and always, Lily.

 

[lilygrace]

I don't want to....i been betrayed.
A lot of times.

 

[April_Rose]

Sounds like Lily should read Rock God that I wrote.

 

[Mayflower]

I don't want to....i been betrayed.
A lot of times.

God would never betray you, LIly. Man can, but God would never do so. He loves you so so much.

 

[Mayflower]

His Word is Truth and He says:

 

[April_Rose]

*MAJOR HUGS to Lily*

 

[Amazed@grace]

I will keep you in my prayers Lily.

 

[lilygrace]

i wont leave if since some thinks i should stay. but i dont want to hurt anyones feelings.
i am moody and grumpy compared to what i used to be.
i am still upset about the woman i posted about too. at one point i let her go.....and just.... maybe it was a season of my life she was in and like i said she still cares but really has her own family and life
shes not the only one who doesnt seem to talk much to me anymore.

 

[April_Rose]

i wont leave if anyone thinks i should stay. but i dont want to hurt anyones feelings.
i am moody and grumpy compared to what i used to be.

Well I can't speak for anybody else, but I personally never had a problem with you.

 

[Mayflower]

i wont leave if anyone thinks i should stay. but i dont want to hurt anyones feelings.
i am moody and grumpy compared to what i used to be.

I might suggest going into encouraging verses and praise threads. Hard to be moody and grumpy praising the Lord. But only if you want to sister. It takes a desire to change things.

 

[April_Rose]

Honestly, I think I get a lot more grumpy on here than she does lol

 

[lilygrace]

I might suggest going into encouraging verses and praise threads. Hard to be moody and grumpy praising the Lord. But only if you want to sister. It takes a desire to change things.

i really have no trouble praising the Lord.
but i sometimes feel i cant help it when triggering moments or days come. they seem more frequent and aggravating.

 

[April_Rose]

i really have no trouble praising the Lord.
but i sometimes feel i cant help it when triggering moments or days come. they seem more frequent and aggravating.

Raise your hand if you had one of those days. *Raises hand high*

 

[Mayflower]

You have to be at a place where you are sick and tired of being sick and tired and willing to try a different way despite all the confusing feelings... As long as you are focusing on all of your shortcomings, then you will never feel any better. You have to come to a place where you just decide to trust God even though you fear Him forsaking you. You trust Him by first coming to believe that prayer I posted with the Romans Road and choosing to give His Words, the Bible, a chance.

 

[Mayflower]

i really have no trouble praising the Lord.
but i sometimes feel i cant help it when triggering moments or days come. they seem more frequent and aggravating.

Yeh... That is when it is hardest to praise. Someone always told me I had to fake it till I made it. That meant putting the Word in me and praising God even when the thoughts and feelings seemed impossible to overcome. Sometimes the self injury urges wouldn't subside for days... I had to learn not to make permanent decisions over temporary negative feelings.

 

[lilygrace]

right i feel urgey in the most scary ways.
i self harmed earlier today. not that anyone needs to know. but i feel sad. backwards spiritually.

 

[April_Rose]

right i feel urgey in the most scary ways.
i self harmed earlier today. not that anyone needs to know. but i feel sad. backwards spiritually.

And as I told you before, you should really talk to a doctor or something if you're doing stuff like that to yourself.