I don`t know about your situation there but go with your heart to try and put your side of the story when you are able to. Now you could go for the cave or try and find out more in this life. Your choice.Do you think I should give up my quest to win my daughter's heart? Because sometimes I have my doubts about how much she wanted to know my side of the story, thinking I should let go completely and find a cave to live in until I die.