- Dec 14, 2011
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Over the past year I've been getter closer to God. I have been stumbling still, but i'm realizing more and more sin is just not worth it anymore. I am confused with what to do with some areas in my life.
I have been contemplating on the idea of getting rid of everything which seems to be even slightly un godly . I could never give up Christmas and stop putting up a tree like a few people I know.
Rather I feel the need feel guilty about listening to some music or using zen meditation.
Now I'm not listening to music which speak anything about hate,killing,sex, drugs etc. I mainly listen to folk(psych folk),new age,some punk rock,Techno. The only music I feel really has an influence on the way I think is relaxing music , and I believe that is a good thing. I just get confused because I don't know if I'm suppose to give up every aspect of my personality for god, or am I suppose to mature and have my heart the right place? I also have a hard time quitting the practice of zen meditation. I don't think of Buddha is a god at all . I more see him as an guy who found a way to calm his thoughts and shared his wisdom with others. I have bipolar and have found mindfulness meditation and zen meditation to be the only things to really help me calm my thoughts and put my emotions back where they should be so I can focus better. So I have prayed and prayed over the problem I'm having with some of these things and still feel somewhat confused. Any advice on what the bible states I should do would be helpful thank you all very much .
I have been contemplating on the idea of getting rid of everything which seems to be even slightly un godly . I could never give up Christmas and stop putting up a tree like a few people I know.
Rather I feel the need feel guilty about listening to some music or using zen meditation.
Now I'm not listening to music which speak anything about hate,killing,sex, drugs etc. I mainly listen to folk(psych folk),new age,some punk rock,Techno. The only music I feel really has an influence on the way I think is relaxing music , and I believe that is a good thing. I just get confused because I don't know if I'm suppose to give up every aspect of my personality for god, or am I suppose to mature and have my heart the right place? I also have a hard time quitting the practice of zen meditation. I don't think of Buddha is a god at all . I more see him as an guy who found a way to calm his thoughts and shared his wisdom with others. I have bipolar and have found mindfulness meditation and zen meditation to be the only things to really help me calm my thoughts and put my emotions back where they should be so I can focus better. So I have prayed and prayed over the problem I'm having with some of these things and still feel somewhat confused. Any advice on what the bible states I should do would be helpful thank you all very much .