In my personal testimony, when I invited Christ into my heart, my life improved drastically. I was healed from depression and suicidal thoughts, set free from the bondage of pornography, and the idles of time wasting that trashed my life. God blessed my physical and mental well-being, even though what is truly important is my eternal well being. But the gospel is a message of eternal life, not temporary prosperity. It is a hard thing as a Christian to experience a life transforming work from God, then to fall away when we begin to understand the cost of being one of Christ's disciples. God has blessed me with what he has so that I can be a like blessing to others. Whether I have much or little, what I have to offer others is dependent on God's unlimited grace, and not limited by my physical/genetic/mental lot in life which was influenced by sin after the fall of man. Obedience is a gift from God that I can't take credit for, but now I am in submission to the Spirit of God, and I am given the strength each day to submit my will unto God's will. Until the day when everything I want to do is everything God already wants me to do. That is true freedom.
The fact is that I deserve nothing. The fact that I can consider God in any way I choose is arrogance if I don't agree with his proven character. God is loving and God is kind. His kindness is what leads us to repentance. It is this fact that leads us to offer up our hearts to God and say "Dear Father, I was created by you and for you. I want to follow you and obey your word no matter the cost." Which of God's commandments haven't I broken? But God is faithful to hear us and promises us the grace to do his will and forgive us and cleanse us of all unrighteousness when we don't. When we understand that God gave everything for us, we can then begin to understand his love, and by his loving kindness we are drawn to the cross. That is where we make the decision to take up our own cross daily. That is when we choose to carry the symbol of our death on our shoulders every moment, because we identify ourselves now with true love which is recognized by God's sacrifice of his son on the cross so that we may become his children, born of his spirit, and transformed of mind and heart into inheritors of his resurrected life.
God gave us everything when we deserved nothing. Let us make the choice today to give God our everything, to live every moment for and one day die for God who deserves our everything, because he is holy and worthy of all of our praise.
God bless you guys and remember it is by how we love one another that the world will see we are his disciples. What good is it to gain the whole world, but lose your soul?