Hi there,
So I have sort of turned inside out, pursuing faith. I was vexed for a long time, about my sin and how to overcome it. At times I would feel fine, then at others I would be vexed; then I would feel like "I have to do something about this 'feeling'!". Eventually, thinking about the Law - don't mistake the importance of the Law - I realised in the Holy Spirit, that I was always going to feel awful, about my sin. I realised that I was going to feel awful about my sin, to the day that I die. This caused a crisis in me, but I accepted it - don't mistake the importance of commitment - and the Holy Spirit started to show me a way out, that was not of this life.
The Holy Spirit showed me, that He was able to make me feel good, about the life to come (the afterlife). I realised that if I trusted the Holy Spirit, not for how I do feel, but how I was going to feel, then it didn't really matter how awful I felt about my sin in this life, better was always coming! This became a habit in me, that gave me confidence and quiet strength (Isaiah 30:15). I realised that no matter how I doubted my salvation, something greater was always coming down the pipeline, that would cheer me up. Then I started to think "what is it that would make me feel complete, about this change (where would it end)?".
The Holy Spirit again, started working with me, and made or helped make me think about the things in this world. He picked something out at random and said "this thing I have pointed out, is of the world, I can make you lose interest in it, because it is of the world" and I lost interest in it. I lost interest in this thing of the world, but only for a moment, because I was still getting my feet (my spiritual feet). Then the Holy Spirit said, "pick something else, I will make you lose interest in it as well (speaking of the world)" and I did, and I lost interest. The Holy Spirit confirmed it at this point saying "I can make you lose interest in anything in this world" and I came to understand that it would be this way until I died, if I trusted the Holy Spirit. Now the Devil was not happy that I was losing interest in the world, but by the power of the Blood of the Lamb and His Testimony, he (the Devil) had no power to resist.
So it was, that I came to conviction in the words "put off the old man and put on the new" "being caught up in glory" (from memory, the letters). I no longer had doubt, that my salvation was enough or that I was 'doing it wrong', I had a clear sense in which the Holy Spirit wanted to improve my life and that I could trust Him to keep me on the straight and narrow path (to God). God was waiting for me to "get" this, so that He could move on from wrestling over the Law concerning my chastisement and move into growing in faith of work, for the need that was throughout the Earth to know Him. Powers and principalities were to come, but first I had to be in the right mindset to be unwavering. When we are unwavering, we can do powerful things! Do I still feel awful about my sin? "Yes", but look how much God can do despite that!
God bless.
So I have sort of turned inside out, pursuing faith. I was vexed for a long time, about my sin and how to overcome it. At times I would feel fine, then at others I would be vexed; then I would feel like "I have to do something about this 'feeling'!". Eventually, thinking about the Law - don't mistake the importance of the Law - I realised in the Holy Spirit, that I was always going to feel awful, about my sin. I realised that I was going to feel awful about my sin, to the day that I die. This caused a crisis in me, but I accepted it - don't mistake the importance of commitment - and the Holy Spirit started to show me a way out, that was not of this life.
The Holy Spirit showed me, that He was able to make me feel good, about the life to come (the afterlife). I realised that if I trusted the Holy Spirit, not for how I do feel, but how I was going to feel, then it didn't really matter how awful I felt about my sin in this life, better was always coming! This became a habit in me, that gave me confidence and quiet strength (Isaiah 30:15). I realised that no matter how I doubted my salvation, something greater was always coming down the pipeline, that would cheer me up. Then I started to think "what is it that would make me feel complete, about this change (where would it end)?".
The Holy Spirit again, started working with me, and made or helped make me think about the things in this world. He picked something out at random and said "this thing I have pointed out, is of the world, I can make you lose interest in it, because it is of the world" and I lost interest in it. I lost interest in this thing of the world, but only for a moment, because I was still getting my feet (my spiritual feet). Then the Holy Spirit said, "pick something else, I will make you lose interest in it as well (speaking of the world)" and I did, and I lost interest. The Holy Spirit confirmed it at this point saying "I can make you lose interest in anything in this world" and I came to understand that it would be this way until I died, if I trusted the Holy Spirit. Now the Devil was not happy that I was losing interest in the world, but by the power of the Blood of the Lamb and His Testimony, he (the Devil) had no power to resist.
So it was, that I came to conviction in the words "put off the old man and put on the new" "being caught up in glory" (from memory, the letters). I no longer had doubt, that my salvation was enough or that I was 'doing it wrong', I had a clear sense in which the Holy Spirit wanted to improve my life and that I could trust Him to keep me on the straight and narrow path (to God). God was waiting for me to "get" this, so that He could move on from wrestling over the Law concerning my chastisement and move into growing in faith of work, for the need that was throughout the Earth to know Him. Powers and principalities were to come, but first I had to be in the right mindset to be unwavering. When we are unwavering, we can do powerful things! Do I still feel awful about my sin? "Yes", but look how much God can do despite that!
God bless.