While i am speaking of stubbornness let me add that it is not the fruit of sin lest it is used the wrong way.
It is a natural normal endowment of God when used properly.
Like today this old man carried a roll of 12' X 8' carpet (very thick woven too) on my shoulder for a bit more than a mile to get it home from the store at which I had purchased it. I was not about to suffer another winter with these hard wood floors as I have my unheated garage/basement right below me and these floors get very cold. (Which then makes my bones ache)
I am stubborn enough to do such things when I have to. I survived out in the woods living in a tent even when the actual temperature hit -20 below zero. The chill factor was running -35 to -45 below. If not for me being so stubborn I would not have survived. But God blesses those who who try and I did survive.
Stubbornness is a good thing when channeled the proper direction.
The moral of my story Insight is that I am telling you to go live in a tent. :lol:
And no, it was not stubbornness that landed me in that situation where I had to live in a tent. It was severe vertigo plaguing so frequently and badly each and every day from my having a very severe case of Meniere's Disease that kept my employers constantly letting me go. I was too great a liability for them to have around.
I had not gotten a formal diagnosis as yet at that time as none of my jobs ever provided insurance. So the hundreds of times I ran to the emergency room and the clinics netted only a guess of an inner ear infection and a prescription for antibiotics which never worked. It was only after my disease finally made me homeless and more than 800 miles away from relatives in any direction, that i finally qualified for free health care and had the ENTs and the Cat Scans and all the many tests available to me to find out what was happening to me.
I felt like a total flop and a failure because of my illness. I felt useless and a burden to family and friends. I still cannot prevent the vertigo but at least now I have better ways to deal with it.
Yesterday I fell down at the side of the road walking to Lowes Lumber and Supplies store to check out carpet prices. I made a new friend out of it when a lady who saw it followed me to Lowes and stopped me to talk with me. So it is not all bad. It could certainly be worse. And as long as I am thinking on God and his word he gives me total mental relief from it. I have had attacks even while on here but I have learned to let it be cause through my capacity to be stubborn to just assert myself all that much harder to learn His word.
It has made me about 3/4 deaf with one ear completely gone and the other needing a hearing aide (wich I cannot afford). But even that has its hidden blessings (especially if I am with someone I do not really care to listen to. I just sit them on the side with my totally deaf ear.) :lol:
It is a natural normal endowment of God when used properly.
Like today this old man carried a roll of 12' X 8' carpet (very thick woven too) on my shoulder for a bit more than a mile to get it home from the store at which I had purchased it. I was not about to suffer another winter with these hard wood floors as I have my unheated garage/basement right below me and these floors get very cold. (Which then makes my bones ache)
I am stubborn enough to do such things when I have to. I survived out in the woods living in a tent even when the actual temperature hit -20 below zero. The chill factor was running -35 to -45 below. If not for me being so stubborn I would not have survived. But God blesses those who who try and I did survive.
Stubbornness is a good thing when channeled the proper direction.
The moral of my story Insight is that I am telling you to go live in a tent. :lol:
And no, it was not stubbornness that landed me in that situation where I had to live in a tent. It was severe vertigo plaguing so frequently and badly each and every day from my having a very severe case of Meniere's Disease that kept my employers constantly letting me go. I was too great a liability for them to have around.
I had not gotten a formal diagnosis as yet at that time as none of my jobs ever provided insurance. So the hundreds of times I ran to the emergency room and the clinics netted only a guess of an inner ear infection and a prescription for antibiotics which never worked. It was only after my disease finally made me homeless and more than 800 miles away from relatives in any direction, that i finally qualified for free health care and had the ENTs and the Cat Scans and all the many tests available to me to find out what was happening to me.
I felt like a total flop and a failure because of my illness. I felt useless and a burden to family and friends. I still cannot prevent the vertigo but at least now I have better ways to deal with it.
Yesterday I fell down at the side of the road walking to Lowes Lumber and Supplies store to check out carpet prices. I made a new friend out of it when a lady who saw it followed me to Lowes and stopped me to talk with me. So it is not all bad. It could certainly be worse. And as long as I am thinking on God and his word he gives me total mental relief from it. I have had attacks even while on here but I have learned to let it be cause through my capacity to be stubborn to just assert myself all that much harder to learn His word.
It has made me about 3/4 deaf with one ear completely gone and the other needing a hearing aide (wich I cannot afford). But even that has its hidden blessings (especially if I am with someone I do not really care to listen to. I just sit them on the side with my totally deaf ear.) :lol: