And are dead. “You become One as they are One?” Then why speak of Life more abundant instead of death more abundant? Why not speak of death? If “you become one as they are one?” Unless I’ve misunderstood what you said.
Do you mean “you become one” as in singular...you become whole? As they are one? Sorry. again not following.
well, i could post some links to give you other perspectives, but it would get really um Eastern really quick, but i'm not trying to be like ascended or a guru or anything lol; so like you have a whole nother batch of charlatans to wade through, sort of, bc they have their Creflo Dollars and whatnot too, ppl branding themselves lol.
So for a westerner i might suggest searching sensory deprivation, the point being to more or less "meet" your ego, which Christ commands followers to empty their pockets and goto another, strange, town, and eat what they feed you? "Town" being a great literal way, but also a metaphor? So tbh there is no substitute for walking completely away from your old life and going to another town imo, but if you have kids, a mortgage, a whatwecall "life," this can be practically impossible, yeh? The cares of the world. So i'm trying to suggest stuff one could do in a closet over a weekend, to get warmed up to the idea. Then you might at least get the experience of...fleeing that empty closet in...well, it wont be identified as "fear" exactly, youll hear/read every other emotion
but fear strangely, "boredom, mind playing tricks, kept going to sleep" are a few, the fear only shows up in the creative ways ppl worm out of going back asap lol.
Did God help you overcome him?
ah well i wish i could say that i have completely overcome my ego, but i dont think it works like that, or at least not for me. As to the Q, i def went there bc i was led, and felt that i was following Christ in doing so, so i would say "yes," but then what do i know, really? God might have one casting lots to determine whose baby to eat today, see, and would you ask me if God was in that?
The worst thing about meeting your monster is, you might be creating a bigger one! lol. It allows one to become "the observer" which is a good search for this too i guess, problem being you become proud that you have met your monster and subdued him, so that takes like a year or five to get over, too. Its really easy to feel like you have arrived and become "ascended" or whatever? Then you are in a worse state than before you met your monster, see, sure cant eat any manna, and all you did was convert your observer i guess. Happens to everyone i think, the pride of learning a valuable secret?
So yes, God helped, by in my case making sure i got invited to the "advanced" learning swami bs, dunno if it was bc i am very tall and aryan or what, blond, was getting invited to retreats via helicopter and i was swallowing it all, too lol. I was i guess quite charismatic then, being asperger's this is a part of myself i really cant see, but i guess maybe i get harnessed for a poster boy or for like others' validation, at least then, and that is very ego-stroking, the point being that there is a whole other class of egomaniac that has learned to harness their ego, and hide it, reading The Prince is good for that btw.
But it is easy for me to tell if someone else is eating manna or meat now, at least. Whether i'm eating one or the other at any particular time would be better asked of the witnesses i guess? Bc i can still be full of crap! :)
Try everything! Keep the good stuff!
Heroin is not bad, right, abusing it is? Tho i guess compounding opium to heroin is basically not a great idea anyway, but how do you learn that? So, heroin is bad, but who can buy opium in the west? So i buy a paper of heroin if it is needed, and i get basically twenty doses of oxycodone for a dollar a pop, not that i have done that for myself for like twenty years or so, but i know where it is if i need it. And the social standing i lose by not getting an Rx of official heroin, i dont care, obviously, or i wouldnt be outing myself here lol.
iow i fully expect to be condemned as a heroin-lover or whatever now by someone, meh, i got no condemnation if they wanna go Rx, no problem for me; is it a problem for them? I got plenty complainers saying "yes" now, huh, ppl, believers all, going to Mexico to get their drugs, etc., getting yanked around by the system, when most of them just need three days in a cave alone, and stay there until the problems go away imo.
But i will introduce a seventy year old to a heroin dealer, too, if that is what they want. I just lay out the choices, and only now when i am like cornered, really trying to get out of rehabbing now. Or at least i've gotten more adamant about a three day fast before even accepting a new client, which has basically put me out of work, yay. Learning that you cant really help anyone is the hardest lesson imo.
