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I had an experience a few years back, now a memory, that I won't ever forget but I will share here. One morning I needed quarters for the laundry machine in my building and all I had was bills, so I headed up the street to a change machine. As I was putting the first dollar in the machine, I saw in the reflection what looked like a homeless man coming toward me from across the street. It was the first time that had happened so i didn't know what to do. I just kept putting the rest of the dollars in and hoped the "stupid slow machine" would hurry up.
He reached me before the rest of the quarters came out and asked If I could spare any money. I was nervous and just said no (as I put the last dollar in the machine). He walked away and as soon as he left I got the worst conviction that I had done the wrong thing. I lied to him about not having any extra money because I didn't want to have to withdraw more money and come back the next day.
The conviction only got worse as the day went on, and I couldn't help but feel extremely selfish and wonder if the man had anything to eat. All I cared about at that moment was the inconvenience it would have caused me and not about what he must experience everyday, having to walk up to strangers and ask for money.
This was before I turned to God, and even though I asked for God's forgiveness, I can help but think that he was sent by God to test me. Especially after reading this passage:
Matthew 25:43-45
[sup]43[/sup] I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
[sup]44[/sup] “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
[sup]45[/sup] “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
It's one of those things you never forget in life. I just wanted to post that here just to get it off my chest and to maybe help someone who may deal with a situation in the future.
He reached me before the rest of the quarters came out and asked If I could spare any money. I was nervous and just said no (as I put the last dollar in the machine). He walked away and as soon as he left I got the worst conviction that I had done the wrong thing. I lied to him about not having any extra money because I didn't want to have to withdraw more money and come back the next day.
The conviction only got worse as the day went on, and I couldn't help but feel extremely selfish and wonder if the man had anything to eat. All I cared about at that moment was the inconvenience it would have caused me and not about what he must experience everyday, having to walk up to strangers and ask for money.
This was before I turned to God, and even though I asked for God's forgiveness, I can help but think that he was sent by God to test me. Especially after reading this passage:
Matthew 25:43-45
[sup]43[/sup] I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
[sup]44[/sup] “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
[sup]45[/sup] “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
It's one of those things you never forget in life. I just wanted to post that here just to get it off my chest and to maybe help someone who may deal with a situation in the future.