Thank you... and you actually make sense. I guess my point is to prove homophobia is real. To be honest and transparent, my intentions are simply that I want to be accepted and loved. It does hurt that people put me in the same category as murderers, rapists, thieves, liars, etc... simply because of who I love. I hate being misunderstood, because there is an intense feeling of isolation that comes along with it. And it seems like unless you have been a homosexual it's impossible to understand where I'm coming from. But I can understand it because it's impossible for me to understand where a heterosexual is coming from; I have tried. I just want there to be reconciliation, but it looks like there will never be, because people are too stubborn and set in their ways.
Fire of course you want to be loved and accepted, all people do! And please don't think all of us are tossing you in with the murderers and rapists etc. You're a sinner...I'm a sinner...every single person is a sinner. We're all the same! We differ in our sins, in our strengths and weaknesses, but that's it. The only other difference...and it's huge, is that my sin has been taken from me by Jesus. This by no means makes me perfect. I still struggle daily with my sins. But by loving Jesus and doing my best to follow Him and His teachings, I know that come the day I stand in front of God, He will see Jesus' righteousness, not my sins. That's it!
I recognise that being gay must be a terrible struggle, because sexuality is such an integral part of a person's very being. But try to understand this...sin is real, and it invades every part of us. All of us! The sin of pride is the worst one of all...and pride is so ingrained in all of us that it is the 'default emotion of the human heart'. Fire...people cannot deal with sin. We just can't. The state of the world today shows us this. Even the best Christian who has been born again still battles it. The only way we gain any ground against it is by the power of the Holy Spirit.
I truly don't know if you even want to fight against your homosexual feelings. When you first started posting here it sounded as if you did, but now not so much. If you do not want to fight against it, you need to know something...God says homosexuality is a sin. Just as sex outside marriage is a sin. This is God's rule, His call. As His children, Christians follow Him, not what people tell us should be expectable. I know you feel this is unfair, even mean, but you have to understand that as His children, and He being our Lord, saviour and God...we are concerned with what He thinks. So if you are truly seeking God, and want our help with your feelings, please, know that we will do all we can to help you. But if you feel you have to accept your feelings in direct opposition to God, I do wonder why you come here for acceptance for those feelings? We cannot give you our acceptance and approval...to do so would to be turn our backs on our beliefs and the direct command of our God.
I hope you understand this, and come to a measure of peace whatever you decide.
And no, I don't lie being criticized and hated. I think it's the other way around. I think hate-mogering christians like the criticism. Some people love to be hated. And they justify it by using the pasage of scripture that tells christians they will be hated and persecuted for Christ's sake. So I imagine it makes them feel closer to God, the more people they offend. I use the WBC as an examle often because they are the face of homophobia. The WBC seems to get off on being "the most hated people in America." You can see the smirks on their faces (watch some of their videos and see if I'm lying) as people taunt and mock them. They seem to enjoy it, and love the attention. They love telling people they're "going to burn in Hell" not because they care about them (it's obvious, because you can never do anything to please them: they will always find something wrong with you...and don't die fro any reason: it's the perfect oportunity for them to say it's God's judgement... and picket your funeral), but because they simply want to exalt themselves to the level of God's throne (in the first sin that was ever committed--pride).
By the way, the WBC bunch is the least Christian group I have ever come across, and that includes all Muslims in the world!