I have never been drawn to threads like these but the past couple of days I can’t stay out of them. I think it’s like ziggy said, things just coming way too fast and who can keep up with them? It’s too much. I’m not one to want to shut my mind down often. In fact, I think we have too many things we shut our minds down with. And letting the world tell you what direction to go in is shutting your mind down too.
I’ve watched people who play games. I can watch them as they play and can see they are trying to shut everything out. I think everyone needs to shut it all out and let their mind decompress at times. I do it when I fold laundry and do dishes and drive in my car. Anything I do that is mostly by rote gives my mind time to quiet and shut out the world and not focus on any particular thing.
But now, just recently, I have to try really hard to shut my mind down and I think it’s why I’ve been drawn to silly threads. But even with seeking them out, I’m suddenly having a hard time sleeping. It was after 4 a.m. that I got to sleep last night. I’m not worried or scared, I just…can’t stop my mind from going. There seems to be too much to try to connect and understand. It’s too much rapid change to and fro for my mind. If I watch any news, which I do for about 1-2 hours a day, I find myself laughing at things that really aren’t funny but I can’t help it. It’s all begun to look like a comedy routine to me. I know it’s not funny but…
That phrase, to and fro…that’s what it all feels like. People run to and fro when they are concerned, nervous, scared, confused, exhausted, angry, excited.
Wait…to be perfectly honest…I do feel some worry. But it’s not about the world. The world is going to go the way the world is going to go. I’m worried about those in here. When THEY seem to be caught up in the whole cancel culture of unforgiveness, and suppression of speech and certain topics, and almost robotic repetition of what they hear, I thing that’s what’s keeping me up…
okay, so…at least I worked that out…I had to ruin the lighthearted thread to work it out.
So…you can throw fruitcakes at me, I deserve it.