im sure there are plenty on both paths, i cant speak for them.
Well answered. Nor can I speak for them. However, you no doubt have some opinions. At least with regard to some.
Thus, you do have an opinion with regard to some.
Assuming, that I am understanding your response correctly, a least you are honest. That I like. And, even given another possible understanding of your response, you are still honest.
do you think the 11 should have waited?
I don't know. It is not a question IMO that any of us can answer of a certainty one way or the other. However, I do know human nature, and how impetuous we can be, running ahead, without waiting upon YHVH (cf Isa 40:31; Lam 3:25).
My
opinion still remains, that the 12 whose names are written upon the 12 foundations, are those who were hand picked by Jesus. One day, we shall know, and I shall look forward to those who may be able to tell me: "I told you so".
the living Jesus is just my way of saying when Jesus was doing His ministry.
Understood. I just couldn't resist picking on you a little.
i dont want to divide anyone. i have no issue with anything Paul teaches.
Which is good to hear. I have spent time amoungst those of the anti-Pauline persuasion and heard their "arguments". It was actually a great experience. Imagine trying to debate someone and not being able to use Luke, or any of Paul's writings in your response or to make a point. Debating them only using the "books" that they accept as "Scripture".
my issue has always been the other good teachers like Paul that we never get to hear.
Ok, I can see and hear your point. I agree, it would be nice to hear more from others. However, we have what we have been given. I once asked questions not unlike what you ask here. I was assured not of men, that we have what we need. Read it, learn it ...
I have read most of the "lost" books, apocryphal books, etc. over the years. Be grounded before you delve too deeply into any of them, or before you make decisions based upon that which you read in them or allow them to sway you. I have seen too many make "doctrines" based upon such and fall prey to the adversary.
May YHVH bless you in your search.