Prayer for answered question

[Moonstone Eterni]

Recently I got a new job. It’s easy entry-level work, and it pays $900 a week. Having been unemployed for quite some time now, it’s truly a great accomplishment to get back in the labor force. I’m also nearly out of cash except for my cryptocurrency investments (which I refuse to sell for at least another 7 to 10 years because I want to retire early by making massive returns), so it’s also an accomplishment to make some money again.

Circumstances for me are good, and I should be happy, right? But I’m not.

What happened? How can I not be happy when I got a no-brainer job that pays well relative to the ease of work? The answer is because God treats me very poorly. He likes to judge me for little tiny vices that do not concern him and have nothing to do with practicing Christianity, and I suffer greatly because God decides to hurt me due to my imperfections.

I tried to get others to pray for me and ask God to quit judging me. I tried to stay positive, hoping God would stop his bizarre need to snoop on my private life if I just stay hopeful. But it was all for nothing: God didn’t stop, and I keep having to suffer because of him.

To be clear, I don’t have any desire to refrain from harmless vices. If I want to have a drink here and there, smoke an occasional cigar, or waste a few hundred dollars at a casino, that is my right; and God doesn’t have a right to intrude into my private life and judge me for these things. But still, he wants to make my private life his business, and I can’t stand it!

I plan to stay at my new job for about ten months to a year, and then move on to more advanced work that pays better. It isn’t possible to drink while on the job, since my work involves driving and I’m not allowed to drink and drive. It isn’t possible to use nicotine while on the job either, because they don’t allow smoking while at work. So yeah, I will finally be capable of living up to God’s rigid standards, and it’s because I’ll be working and therefore unable to engage in these vices that God seems to hate, even though it’s not really any of his business in the first place.

What does this mean? It means my suffering will end. I’ll finally be able to live up to God’s rigid standards, so he will remove the problem. At least I hope. In the past he didn’t want to do it when I achieved his impossible standards, but I believe he regrets turning his back on me in the past when I did everything right but instead chose to find another fault in me.

I’ll be okay soon—but there is still a problem.

God put me through years of this horror, and often it seemed like no end was in sight. I’m not happy about it. In fact, I’m very hurt by his refusal to end the terror much earlier. God’s conduct has left a scar on my heart, and no amount of insincere apologies will heal this horrible wound that happened because God refused compassion because he decided to judge me for harmless little vices that should not concern him.

What I want to know is why. Why did God do this to me? Why did God put me through years or horror, terror, and suffering over harmless vices? What he did to me isn’t right! He deeply hurt me, and I’ll never recover from the psychological injuries of being denied mercy and compassion for imperfections (then having to suffer prodigiously because of it), all of it happening for years.

I will pray to God later and ask him why. I don’t think he will answer my prayer, since lately he hasn’t been answering my prayers but instead ignoring me. So I want others to pray and ask God to answer my question. If more people pray, maybe my question prayer won’t get ignored.

 

[dev553344]

Praying for you.

 

[Goldie75]

Hi @Moonstone Eterni - you mention God a lot, but it is not the same God I am in a relationship with and see revealed throughout the scriptures.

You’re clearly bright and I don’t want to insult your intelligence…but, I recommend going back to basics….reading your Bible and seeking the real God to reveal Himself to you THROUGH the scriptures and sound teaching. What you write of sounds to me like an imaginary relationship…either formed in your own mind, or through a deceiving spirit. The truth is in the Person of Jesus Christ.

 

[Enoch111]

...and God doesn’t have a right to intrude into my private life and judge me for these things.

Quite obviously you do not understand that when the Lord Jesus Christ is your Lord and Savior, He is the Boss -- not you. Not only does He have every right to intrude into your private life, but He also has the right to discipline you for being so cocky. So you ain't seen nothin' yet.

 

[Lambano]

Hey, Moonstone, the last time we talked, I thought you'd decided to let God have it His way. You sounded like you were a much happier and healthier man, which made me smile (even while it made me confused too). What changed?

I promise, I will pray for you.

 

[Moonstone Eterni]

Last night I suffered greatly, having been continually injected with poison by monsters. I pleaded with God to make it stop, but he told me no, saying that because I had some wine he didn’t want to help me.

I don’t understand God. Why on earth does he think something as harmless as drinking wine means he doesn’t want to help a Christian who is undergoing considerable distress, even torture? What is wrong with him?

Let’s say a child is getting bullied at school and tells the principal. What if the principal said, “Well, your grades aren’t good. You made several Cs and Ds, so why should I bother helping you?” What a truly awful thing to say! You don’t refuse to help someone because of their flaws, none of which victimize others. Nobody thinks like that—except for God.

And all I want to know is why. Why is God treating me so poorly? What is his problem?

 

[dev553344]

Last night I suffered greatly, having been continually injected with poison by monsters. I pleaded with God to make it stop, but he told me no, saying that because I had some wine he didn’t want to help me.

I don’t understand God. Why on earth does he think something as harmless as drinking wine means he doesn’t want to help a Christian who is undergoing considerable distress, even torture? What is wrong with him?

Let’s say a child is getting bullied at school and tells the principal. What if the principal said, “Well, your grades aren’t good. You made several Cs and Ds, so why should I bother helping you?” What a truly awful thing to say! You don’t refuse to help someone because of their flaws, none of which victimize others. Nobody thinks like that—except for God.

And all I want to know is why. Why is God treating me so poorly? What is his problem?

I would consider that perhaps it's not demonic or God's wrath. God allows everyone freedom of choice while on this earth. But instead consider that you might be having a physical reaction to the alcohol and just think it's God or Satan.

Again we don't talk to God that way either. God is loved by Christians and God is peaceful and loving. He would not allow us to be tortured by demons, that simply is not his will. That is the will of the devil.

I will pray for you, please consider the advice from the people of this forum.

 

[Lambano]

Last night I suffered greatly, having been continually injected with poison by monsters.

Say what?

 

[TLHKAJ]

Last night I suffered greatly, having been continually injected with poison by monsters. I pleaded with God to make it stop, but he told me no, saying that because I had some wine he didn’t want to help me.

I don’t understand God. Why on earth does he think something as harmless as drinking wine means he doesn’t want to help a Christian who is undergoing considerable distress, even torture? What is wrong with him?

Let’s say a child is getting bullied at school and tells the principal. What if the principal said, “Well, your grades aren’t good. You made several Cs and Ds, so why should I bother helping you?” What a truly awful thing to say! You don’t refuse to help someone because of their flaws, none of which victimize others. Nobody thinks like that—except for God.

And all I want to know is why. Why is God treating me so poorly? What is his problem?

It's very apparent that you're hearing drom.entitiea pretending to be God. God will not violate His Word. If the voice you're hearing doesn't line up with His Word, you're not hearing from God.

Would you describe what you mean by being injected with poison by demons?

Were you brought up with any sort of occult influence in your family?

 

[TLHKAJ]

So I want others to pray and ask God to answer my question. If more people pray, maybe my question prayer won’t get ignored.

You don't want to hear from God. You want to live your life your way. Why pray if you don't truly want His input?

There is something else going on here. I do not believe you're hearing from God at all. The voice/s you're hearing is demonic. You need a relationship with God that includes reading the Word, if you want to hear His voice.

 

[Moonstone Eterni]

I want to say thank you to everyone for supporting me.

I have good news and bad news. Let’s start with the bad news…

The bad news is that I haven’t prayed in three days. That is normal for a lot of nominal Christians, but not for me. I feel alienated from God, so I’ve lost interest in prayer.

The good news is that I had an appointment with my doctor yesterday, and I told him about my daily drinking and want to stop because I begin work next week. He gave me a pill that is supposed to help someone stop drinking. I had no idea such a pill existed, but he swears it works, and it probably will.

But still, it seems odd that God should find fault in me for drinking wine. Alcohol makes me happy, and there are actually benefits of drinking red wine for heart health. Yeah, I prefer sweet wine over dry wine, but I’ll have some of the red stuff here and there.

But whatever: I’ll do what God wants. My prescription should be available for pick-up later in the morning, so I give the pill a try and report back with the results.

God should get rid of my extreme problem later tonight, which happens because I drink (but is unrelated to drinking). If he does that, I won’t feel alienated from him and will resume praying as usual.

 

[dev553344]

I want to say thank you to everyone for supporting me.

I have good news and bad news. Let’s start with the bad news…

The bad news is that I haven’t prayed in three days. That is normal for a lot of nominal Christians, but not for me. I feel alienated from God, so I’ve lost interest in prayer.

The good news is that I had an appointment with my doctor yesterday, and I told him about my daily drinking and want to stop because I begin work next week. He gave me a pill that is supposed to help someone stop drinking. I had no idea such a pill existed, but he swears it works, and it probably will.

But still, it seems odd that God should find fault in me for drinking wine. Alcohol makes me happy, and there are actually benefits of drinking red wine for heart health. Yeah, I prefer sweet wine over dry wine, but I’ll have some of the red stuff here and there.

But whatever: I’ll do what God wants. My prescription should be available for pick-up later in the morning, so I give the pill a try and report back with the results.

God should get rid of my extreme problem later tonight, which happens because I drink (but is unrelated to drinking). If he does that, I won’t feel alienated from him and will resume praying as usual.

Great. God wants us to be sober and enjoy life. Great news. Life is great and we have a lot to be thankful for.

 

[MatthewG]

What you do is your choice.

I don’t understand how God is judging you.

However my encouragement is to continue pray, and do it yourself. Seek out God in faith and you will rewarded. He is a rewarder for those who seek him.

This me in the flesh talking about prayer with use of scripture. It might be of use to you, I do not know.

God bless.