God was going to give me a wife to marry, and I was supposed to meet her about three years from now. She is from another country. After finding out some shocking details about her, I have decided not to marry her. I heard she already had been sexual with other boys, and was going to do more sexual things with them from now until I meet her. When I expressed dismay, God said to me, “I’ll just have to keep the boys away from her.” Um, really? I don’t even want her anymore.
I’m thinking, What the hell? If she is her young age, which is much younger than me, and already has more dating and sexual experience than me, then I don’t want her. The whole reason why I wanted a foreign wife was because I thought they weren’t like the girls in my high school who dated around and dated bad boys and didn’t commit, all the while ignoring me: The one person who just wanted someone to love forever and ever and commit to always. Surely girls aren’t like that everywhere, or so I thought…
God mislead me. Years ago when I asked God to show me my future wife, I had told him she had to be a virgin. God was also aware of my extreme jealously and inferiority complex on this subject: I had to have a pure girl, or else I would suffer horrible heartache for life because of her past. He showed me her picture many times before, and the whole time I thought she was a pure girl who didn’t date. Instead she was only a “technical virgin,” meaning she did every sex act except intercourse.
I am in my thirties, and I’ve never been in a relationship with a woman before. I am a virgin. Therefore, I am entitled to marry a wife who is inexperienced and pure like I am. To marry someone with any sexual experience whatsoever would ruin my life and leave me with permanent heartache, jealously, and feeling worthless and inferior, and these horrible feelings would be especially pronounced if she is much younger than me (like if I married the would-have-been wife God picked for me). If the truth about that girl’s past came out sometime during our marriage (assuming I married her without knowing), I know for sure that I would have betrayed her and taken a mistress specifically to retaliate against her and hurt her because of her past.
I want God to show me who my new wife is. My new wife must be a virgin with no boyfriend before. She cannot have any dating, relationship, or sexual experience before. Please pray and ask God to reveal who she is to me with a mental image some time later.
I’m thinking, What the hell? If she is her young age, which is much younger than me, and already has more dating and sexual experience than me, then I don’t want her. The whole reason why I wanted a foreign wife was because I thought they weren’t like the girls in my high school who dated around and dated bad boys and didn’t commit, all the while ignoring me: The one person who just wanted someone to love forever and ever and commit to always. Surely girls aren’t like that everywhere, or so I thought…
God mislead me. Years ago when I asked God to show me my future wife, I had told him she had to be a virgin. God was also aware of my extreme jealously and inferiority complex on this subject: I had to have a pure girl, or else I would suffer horrible heartache for life because of her past. He showed me her picture many times before, and the whole time I thought she was a pure girl who didn’t date. Instead she was only a “technical virgin,” meaning she did every sex act except intercourse.
I am in my thirties, and I’ve never been in a relationship with a woman before. I am a virgin. Therefore, I am entitled to marry a wife who is inexperienced and pure like I am. To marry someone with any sexual experience whatsoever would ruin my life and leave me with permanent heartache, jealously, and feeling worthless and inferior, and these horrible feelings would be especially pronounced if she is much younger than me (like if I married the would-have-been wife God picked for me). If the truth about that girl’s past came out sometime during our marriage (assuming I married her without knowing), I know for sure that I would have betrayed her and taken a mistress specifically to retaliate against her and hurt her because of her past.
I want God to show me who my new wife is. My new wife must be a virgin with no boyfriend before. She cannot have any dating, relationship, or sexual experience before. Please pray and ask God to reveal who she is to me with a mental image some time later.
